lazy lazy lazy
steve and i got into what i may call our first big fight last night... apparently i was being rude to him... idk. i was craving a cigarette so badly. i quit smoking on aug 1st... it's not that easy.
today was good though- lazy day :)
we spent ALL day in bed.... sleeping, watching movies, cuddling, sex (omg!), beers, some illegal substances, ordering food...
it was the BEST <3
fred told me tonight that we cant hang out anytime soon.
i wish i knew what that meant... the anytime soon part. i want things to be back to normal. i want to be able to have a friendship with him, a normal friendship. i wish we could go back to like 3 years ago.. and just pick up a friendship right before our relationship went sour.
a post secret postcard made me cry tonight... it said "please don't forget the day we picked blueberries"
it made me think of the time fred and i went blueberry picking, and all the good times we've had together.
i miss those times terribly.
today was good though- lazy day :)
we spent ALL day in bed.... sleeping, watching movies, cuddling, sex (omg!), beers, some illegal substances, ordering food...
it was the BEST <3
fred told me tonight that we cant hang out anytime soon.
i wish i knew what that meant... the anytime soon part. i want things to be back to normal. i want to be able to have a friendship with him, a normal friendship. i wish we could go back to like 3 years ago.. and just pick up a friendship right before our relationship went sour.
a post secret postcard made me cry tonight... it said "please don't forget the day we picked blueberries"
it made me think of the time fred and i went blueberry picking, and all the good times we've had together.
i miss those times terribly.