it's been forever
i cant remember the last time i posted on livejournal.... and i dont have it open, so i cant even look back to know. (using x-journal to post...)
things have changed drastically since last year.
fred and i are nothing. yes, one might call us friends. we hang out about once a week, sometimes more, we stay remotely interested in each other's lives, and we manage to talk online or on the phone daily. but things have changed, and i feel like i don't know him anymore. it really hurts, actually. i found myself crying about it last night... and i hurt the person i love over it.
the person whom i love...
steve has caught my attention, and more importantly, my heart. i've known him for years, although only recently got to know who he is. he's caring, devoted, humorous, thoughtful, affectionate, driven...
im having trouble finding something about him that isn't good. he whole heartedly cares about me, and i couldn't ask for more.
i decided to write in here, however, not because steve had been perusing through my journal a few days ago, but because today i did something i haven't done in over a year. i went into AC Moore the other day, and picked out two center pieces for necklaces; with the intent to make something with them. after i bought them, i realized i probably never would. but a few minutes ago, i took out my bead set... and beaded. it brought back so many memories...
im not friends with the girls anymore, and i am probably better off because of it. all we did was gossip about people... with the occasional trip to rockin' joe's, or a night of drama. i can't figure out what i got out of their friendships besides time fillers.
that may seem harsh, and i don't mean it to. but let's face it- true friends don't drop you out of nowhere.
i guess that's about it for now. sionara, suckers.
things have changed drastically since last year.
fred and i are nothing. yes, one might call us friends. we hang out about once a week, sometimes more, we stay remotely interested in each other's lives, and we manage to talk online or on the phone daily. but things have changed, and i feel like i don't know him anymore. it really hurts, actually. i found myself crying about it last night... and i hurt the person i love over it.
the person whom i love...
steve has caught my attention, and more importantly, my heart. i've known him for years, although only recently got to know who he is. he's caring, devoted, humorous, thoughtful, affectionate, driven...
im having trouble finding something about him that isn't good. he whole heartedly cares about me, and i couldn't ask for more.
i decided to write in here, however, not because steve had been perusing through my journal a few days ago, but because today i did something i haven't done in over a year. i went into AC Moore the other day, and picked out two center pieces for necklaces; with the intent to make something with them. after i bought them, i realized i probably never would. but a few minutes ago, i took out my bead set... and beaded. it brought back so many memories...
im not friends with the girls anymore, and i am probably better off because of it. all we did was gossip about people... with the occasional trip to rockin' joe's, or a night of drama. i can't figure out what i got out of their friendships besides time fillers.
that may seem harsh, and i don't mean it to. but let's face it- true friends don't drop you out of nowhere.
i guess that's about it for now. sionara, suckers.