.realizations.hurt.
so i hung out with david and tony tonight, and later teri too. tony was an asshole the whole time. i realized that he isnt the person who he used to be, or who it thought he was. and that's upsetting. he has a girlfriend, but doesnt act like it at all. im not even gonna get into how, incase she reads this. he makes fun of me constantly, and when i freak out, says i need to chill, that it's a joke. yet when someone says the slightest thing that might offend him, he freaks out, and its not okay. and david...he just sits there. so when we dropped tony off tonight, right before me, david and i talked about why i was in such a bad mood.
:::so here's the realization:::
its actually 2 parts....1, as i said before, tony isnt the person who i thought he was, and he isnt the person who he used to be. 2...the reason why he continues to be an ass, especially when david is around... (actually, usually only when david is around) is because he looks up to david. so when david sits there, and doesn't disapprove of what tony says or does, and sometimes even laughs at it, tony eats that shit up, therefore creating this vicious cycle of what i like to call "tasteless tony". its difficult to expain...and i wish there were better words that i could explain it with. but unfortunately, my vocabulary doesnt extend that far.
otherwise, today has been wonderful. good morning, day, and afternoon. i got limewire, and downloaded about 550 songs today...in about 2 hours. rockin. and i went swimming at camp, with nick, and went out for lunch with liz, hila, and inbar. that was good times. and the show for my kids isnt all that bad. ill start teaching it on monday. i just had an...interesting...conversation with matt reber. oh i love that kid. and now talking to steve. woo hoo! but i think its bed time. pharewell children. **make love not war**
*fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity*
:::so here's the realization:::
its actually 2 parts....1, as i said before, tony isnt the person who i thought he was, and he isnt the person who he used to be. 2...the reason why he continues to be an ass, especially when david is around... (actually, usually only when david is around) is because he looks up to david. so when david sits there, and doesn't disapprove of what tony says or does, and sometimes even laughs at it, tony eats that shit up, therefore creating this vicious cycle of what i like to call "tasteless tony". its difficult to expain...and i wish there were better words that i could explain it with. but unfortunately, my vocabulary doesnt extend that far.
otherwise, today has been wonderful. good morning, day, and afternoon. i got limewire, and downloaded about 550 songs today...in about 2 hours. rockin. and i went swimming at camp, with nick, and went out for lunch with liz, hila, and inbar. that was good times. and the show for my kids isnt all that bad. ill start teaching it on monday. i just had an...interesting...conversation with matt reber. oh i love that kid. and now talking to steve. woo hoo! but i think its bed time. pharewell children. **make love not war**
*fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity*