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Goodevening!
So I sit here thinking...thinking about everything, something I've been doing a lot of lately. But where to start? hmmm...Well theres always the I hate the world...because at this point I do.
I hate putting lots of hard work into sometihng, like all of the bulliten boards I take hours to do at the rec center only to have them ruined by some spoiled brat whose parent stands there and permits them to do so. And its always the kids whose parents are dressed businessy and drive the big expensive SUVs and what not. And then when I ask them not to touch them the parents speak negatively about me as if I'm not even there...now that just feels fucking awesome! But the people I work with are no better...whatever...I don't consider any of them friends anyway..."I want to take you shopping and give you a makeover"...or you can fuck off? I don't want to be made over, even if you meant that in the nicest possible way. And don't get the embarressed look on your face when you're trying to back peddle realizing you've said sometihng about sometihng I wasn't invited to...if you hadn't noticed I don't go to work functions...because they make me feel uncomfortable...I don't fit in...but at this point I don't give a shit...I'm there to do my job...sometihng I used to love doing...but I'm not so sure anymore. I hate the stress and the parents and patrons that are always judging me. I hate being called names by all the ungreatful little immigrant assholes that I have to deal with...And if they talk about you in another language unless you can totally prove what the are saying I'm not allowed to do anytihng about it! I hate injuries from basketballs because it was kicked so hard that I didn't even have a split secound to move my head..and then having the big supervisor say that I didnb't need an accident report done...news flash...I don't cry unless I'm REALLY SAD or REALLY Hurt...and I was crying and had to catch my breath...but that just wasn;'t good enough...oh well...I'm tired of having nothing to do then having loads of shit dumped on me, all at once. I'm tired of everyone thinking that bulliten boards are my life! Really I dont like doing them all that much...but when I do get into them the little fuckers ruin them! I also hate when as a child is puting away a game that they just finished playing and they were having a great time says they are bored! Fuck off! you haven't even had 3 secounds to get bored so shut the fuck up! I hate not getting any respect form anyone, I hate other staff thinking that I hold a lower position then I do, you know I have keys too! I can lock up too! Oh fuck whatever! This stupied fucking job isn't worth everyting I give it! I try too hard and for fucking what!?!? absolutely nothing!
Hmmm...what else...oh maybe that the human race is a fucking joke...So you hear about 3 puppies being found in a dumpster...boowho! then they do an autopsy do see how thay died!?!? Who fucking cares! How come we don't hear on the news about children being beaten or anytihng???!! We don't hear about 99.9% of the terrible things people do to children becasue people are tooo concerned worrying about animals! It drives me fucking crazy! Today on the news at noon they had how to keep your pet safe for halloween! Not your children...your PET! Fuck pets! I mean, yeah pets can be cute but they are just that...A PET! Do you know how much money people donate for animal shelters and all the bullshit...but they don't donate to CAS or other organizations like that? People take better care of their pets then they do thier kids! I know people who cook sunday breakfast of egggs and toast for thier dogs, but not for the kids...and when they go out to restaurants they bring things home for the dog! That would be the fucking day! People don't care enough about other people! It seems that its every person for themself...but they'll save the fucking animals along the way!
On a happier note I'm very excited about halloween! I took the night off work (its my fucking turn becasue I never do) And I'm handing out candy with my stacer! We are gonna drink slings and play dress up and be wonderful! Oh how I love us!
Hmmm...well tihngs with Nate were better tonight...he said that he was sorry for everytihng he siad...which was a lot of nasty shit...really really hurt me...but he did say he was sorry so things are good now...for now...
Well I think thats all for now...and these are my opinions and if you don't agree keep it to yourself...I've got some strong beliefs and don't need to be given a hard time for them...thanks!
Oh btw...I'm thinking a jack and sally rib piece...probably cost me around $400...but I tihnk its well worth it!
So I sit here thinking...thinking about everything, something I've been doing a lot of lately. But where to start? hmmm...Well theres always the I hate the world...because at this point I do.
I hate putting lots of hard work into sometihng, like all of the bulliten boards I take hours to do at the rec center only to have them ruined by some spoiled brat whose parent stands there and permits them to do so. And its always the kids whose parents are dressed businessy and drive the big expensive SUVs and what not. And then when I ask them not to touch them the parents speak negatively about me as if I'm not even there...now that just feels fucking awesome! But the people I work with are no better...whatever...I don't consider any of them friends anyway..."I want to take you shopping and give you a makeover"...or you can fuck off? I don't want to be made over, even if you meant that in the nicest possible way. And don't get the embarressed look on your face when you're trying to back peddle realizing you've said sometihng about sometihng I wasn't invited to...if you hadn't noticed I don't go to work functions...because they make me feel uncomfortable...I don't fit in...but at this point I don't give a shit...I'm there to do my job...sometihng I used to love doing...but I'm not so sure anymore. I hate the stress and the parents and patrons that are always judging me. I hate being called names by all the ungreatful little immigrant assholes that I have to deal with...And if they talk about you in another language unless you can totally prove what the are saying I'm not allowed to do anytihng about it! I hate injuries from basketballs because it was kicked so hard that I didn't even have a split secound to move my head..and then having the big supervisor say that I didnb't need an accident report done...news flash...I don't cry unless I'm REALLY SAD or REALLY Hurt...and I was crying and had to catch my breath...but that just wasn;'t good enough...oh well...I'm tired of having nothing to do then having loads of shit dumped on me, all at once. I'm tired of everyone thinking that bulliten boards are my life! Really I dont like doing them all that much...but when I do get into them the little fuckers ruin them! I also hate when as a child is puting away a game that they just finished playing and they were having a great time says they are bored! Fuck off! you haven't even had 3 secounds to get bored so shut the fuck up! I hate not getting any respect form anyone, I hate other staff thinking that I hold a lower position then I do, you know I have keys too! I can lock up too! Oh fuck whatever! This stupied fucking job isn't worth everyting I give it! I try too hard and for fucking what!?!? absolutely nothing!
Hmmm...what else...oh maybe that the human race is a fucking joke...So you hear about 3 puppies being found in a dumpster...boowho! then they do an autopsy do see how thay died!?!? Who fucking cares! How come we don't hear on the news about children being beaten or anytihng???!! We don't hear about 99.9% of the terrible things people do to children becasue people are tooo concerned worrying about animals! It drives me fucking crazy! Today on the news at noon they had how to keep your pet safe for halloween! Not your children...your PET! Fuck pets! I mean, yeah pets can be cute but they are just that...A PET! Do you know how much money people donate for animal shelters and all the bullshit...but they don't donate to CAS or other organizations like that? People take better care of their pets then they do thier kids! I know people who cook sunday breakfast of egggs and toast for thier dogs, but not for the kids...and when they go out to restaurants they bring things home for the dog! That would be the fucking day! People don't care enough about other people! It seems that its every person for themself...but they'll save the fucking animals along the way!
On a happier note I'm very excited about halloween! I took the night off work (its my fucking turn becasue I never do) And I'm handing out candy with my stacer! We are gonna drink slings and play dress up and be wonderful! Oh how I love us!
Hmmm...well tihngs with Nate were better tonight...he said that he was sorry for everytihng he siad...which was a lot of nasty shit...really really hurt me...but he did say he was sorry so things are good now...for now...
Well I think thats all for now...and these are my opinions and if you don't agree keep it to yourself...I've got some strong beliefs and don't need to be given a hard time for them...thanks!
Oh btw...I'm thinking a jack and sally rib piece...probably cost me around $400...but I tihnk its well worth it!