back back back...
i am back from va, back from the tears, and ready to begin to move on. i have a newfound hope!!!
i found myself saying (typing) i love you. i wanted to say it while talking to j...but got too nervous so took the low road and texted it. i will say it...rather than type it....if i could just put aside my nerves.
after tuesday, april 17th and jonathan (crosses fingers) is permanently mine..then i can go anywhere i want to. after, of course, i save money and figure out where it is we will be. or should i say discuss with j where we will be. IF we plan what i think we might plan it will be nice to plan it together and not feel any pressure to DEFINITELY plan a move when we are not ready for it...plus it will give us a little time to make ourselves ready for the "next step" - perhaps this is talking too soon or moving too fast...but since there has not been a MOVE then i think things are going WELL....
that's all for now...going to go and try to wind down from my trip..lil j is still up!!!
she arrives tomorrow!!!!!!
i found myself saying (typing) i love you. i wanted to say it while talking to j...but got too nervous so took the low road and texted it. i will say it...rather than type it....if i could just put aside my nerves.
after tuesday, april 17th and jonathan (crosses fingers) is permanently mine..then i can go anywhere i want to. after, of course, i save money and figure out where it is we will be. or should i say discuss with j where we will be. IF we plan what i think we might plan it will be nice to plan it together and not feel any pressure to DEFINITELY plan a move when we are not ready for it...plus it will give us a little time to make ourselves ready for the "next step" - perhaps this is talking too soon or moving too fast...but since there has not been a MOVE then i think things are going WELL....
that's all for now...going to go and try to wind down from my trip..lil j is still up!!!
she arrives tomorrow!!!!!!