fuck
I've seriously never felt anxiety like I do right now. Not anything even close. My hands are shaking, my head is aching and I have chest pains. Just totally agitated. I can't sit still for more than 30 seconds at a time either. It's so incredibly tempting just to smash things right now. Make a few holes in the plaster of my room. No way to calm down it seems. Today I drove around aimlessly for hours to try and relax and get some clarity. This is hell. I gtg distract myself now from this somehow, in any way possible.