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im always always always screwing up something between us.
& i somehow managed to do it on our prom night.
i was in the a terrible mood, right from the start. my hair didnt look good enough, i really didnt like my makeup & every little thing was driving me crazy. plus, i was nervous about taking pictures with your parents, so that didnt help.
when we werent fighting [ which was again, my fault ] you were so perfect to me.
i tried calling you so i could tell you that, but you wont answer your phone. i guess i dont blame you since i was a bitch to you the majority of the night.
ive finallly realized that i do need to change if i want to keep you in my life.
im going to try to stop being so jealous. im going to try to trust you more, because i need to stop being so controlling. there might come a day when you've finally had enough, when you've decided that i dont deserve another chance. im praying that that day never comes. but if i keep treating you the way ive been treating you, its going to come sooner or later.
id do anything to go back to last night when we had our arms around eachother & everything was perfect..