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its funny how you make me so happy & so angry at the same time.
maybe i have been annoying you latley. & im sorry for asking so many questions, but i cant get over the fact that you lied to me. i know you lied to me because you were still upset with me & i probably shouldnt be worrying about it, but i really dont know if i can believe anything that you say. how am i supposed to know that what you're telling me is what you REALLY mean? i want to believe you but in the back of my mind, i still have so many doubts. like, im sorry .. but i dont trust you when you're with your friends. to say it nicely, they despise me .. apparently im a slut? & im sure they'd prefer it if we werent together anymore.
but then there are times when you make me feel INCREDIBLE. like on my birthday. & today :)
you were the first person that i wanted to call today, but i couldnt.
you knew how badly i wanted this. you would have shared the excitment with me.
i honestly dont think our friendship is ever going to go back to being what it was.
things will be okay, but they'll never be what they used to be.
.. i miss the old you.
fyi .. i LOVE the wonder years :)
im addicted to it on youtube. i cant wait until april 2nd when it comes back on tv.
you have stolen my heart <3