Re: Bloodshed.anya_ankyankaJanuary 19 2005, 00:31:10 UTC
My stomach turned a little, I hadn't really realized what I had said about Xander, but I had to go with it. After all the emotional anguish he put me through, he deserves. It was almost like I was trying to convince myself, but I had to do it. This is the way that things were done... Xander had to know that what he did was wrong, he couldn't just do that to someone,
"Yes, well his fears...." I thought for a little. Obviously not breaking poor girls' hearts, "I think one of the big ones would have to be losing his loved ones, like his best friends, but then again he already just lost them."
Then it came to me. That one night, on Halloween, our first date. "Being alone. Being forgotten and being alone." I suppose if that really was his biggest fear, me actually working myself into the situation wouldn't really turn out well... but maybe... "Maybe if he was under the implication.. I mean the fact that I was completely over him, that might hurt a little. As for the ice picks and lighter? A touch of being overrated. Although I mainly dealt with vengeance through magicks, I found that for physical torture, sometimes just leaving a person locked up alone for a long period of time can hurt worse than any physical pain."
I started thinking about me torturing Xander. Maybe it would be fun. Even a little sexy, in a really twisted way....
Oh God... we were actually still talking about torture? With... with Anya? Instead of, oh, I don't know... maybe going back downstairs again? But I couldn't just let this girl stay here and endear herself to Warren with all her talk of torture and cold-bloodedness. I could be cold blooded too, you know.
At least, for Warren I could. I-I bet I could even kill for him sometime. I don't know who, but I'd do it!
Especially if it would make Warren stop looking at Anya and look back at me again.
As for this conversation, I decided to just stay quiet for now. It would probably be smartest, since if I tried to say something I think my voice would sound kinda like I was going through puberty all over again. To be honest, Warren was scaring me a little. He'd changed so fast. One minute we were talking about robbing banks and making invisibility rays, and now all of the sudden there's murder and torture and stuff.
Ok, so Warren seemed even cooler despite it all, but it still made my stomach feel kina weird to think about us hurting people like that. It would take some getting used to I guess, but I'd do it for Warren.
So I nodded along with both of them, trying to look like as was as into the conversation as the both of them seemed to be, hoping that it would be over soon and Warren could do that... that thing to me that he was doing before.
"Yes, well his fears...." I thought for a little. Obviously not breaking poor girls' hearts, "I think one of the big ones would have to be losing his loved ones, like his best friends, but then again he already just lost them."
Then it came to me. That one night, on Halloween, our first date. "Being alone. Being forgotten and being alone." I suppose if that really was his biggest fear, me actually working myself into the situation wouldn't really turn out well... but maybe... "Maybe if he was under the implication.. I mean the fact that I was completely over him, that might hurt a little. As for the ice picks and lighter? A touch of being overrated. Although I mainly dealt with vengeance through magicks, I found that for physical torture, sometimes just leaving a person locked up alone for a long period of time can hurt worse than any physical pain."
I started thinking about me torturing Xander. Maybe it would be fun. Even a little sexy, in a really twisted way....
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At least, for Warren I could. I-I bet I could even kill for him sometime. I don't know who, but I'd do it!
Especially if it would make Warren stop looking at Anya and look back at me again.
As for this conversation, I decided to just stay quiet for now. It would probably be smartest, since if I tried to say something I think my voice would sound kinda like I was going through puberty all over again. To be honest, Warren was scaring me a little. He'd changed so fast. One minute we were talking about robbing banks and making invisibility rays, and now all of the sudden there's murder and torture and stuff.
Ok, so Warren seemed even cooler despite it all, but it still made my stomach feel kina weird to think about us hurting people like that. It would take some getting used to I guess, but I'd do it for Warren.
So I nodded along with both of them, trying to look like as was as into the conversation as the both of them seemed to be, hoping that it would be over soon and Warren could do that... that thing to me that he was doing before.
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