Swedish fish, Law and Order, and the ringing of my cell phone with your name on it...
First off, Happy Birthday, Ian Raxter! Yay for rated 'r' tickets!
Well, I've been able to do a lot of thinking over the past week. I really enjoyed camp this year, i felt like i was more calm about stuff and was able to comprehend more of the messages that were being sent out. For those of you who do not know, i attend a church camp in Romeo, Michigan every summer for a week. I have met some of my best friends there and have been finding a little more of myself each year.
Well, before i left for camp, the sound of my mom's voice use to make me feel sick. I didn't really understand, but everytime she talked to me i would just leave the house and go drive.
I also use to depend on my brother to be my crutch, even though God should've been there instead. My brother isn't going to be there for every decision i make. I've realized i need to trust God and myself more and make better decisions. Then, there was a sermon about forgiveness. I guess this is one of the hardest things to deal with. I made a list of all the people i don't like or have problems with and i decided to pray for them and make the gaps between us smaller. I keep finding new people to add to the list, but i cant wait to start crossing people off. I'm sick of living my life angry. I'm tired of gossiping. I think I'll write my papa a letter tomorrow.
I know this is one of the harder periods in my life because i'm not too old, not too young. I guess we as teenagers don't really have a spot in this world. I'm willing to break through these walls and be the person i use to be. I going to change my ways a little, and care about others a little more, too. I apologize to those who i had to step on when i fell of the path.
Well, i told my mom on the way home about how i was feeling and if she had noticed. She said she did and that it hurt to watch me leave the house when we would fight, but she had faith i would come back. I hope this phase ends here, i don't have the money to pay for the gas or the heart to keep fighting the same argument.
Hopefully i can set up an appointment for Joe and I to get our hair cut, soon. I have a doctor appointment tomorrow and on tuesday i'm going to the SWITCHFOOT concert in Jackson! Then later in the week i'll be going college hunting, visiting with Tim Leach and Colleen Yancy(::fingers crossed::), and taking Capers to church! Well, I'm off to bed. My prayers are with you, and i hope all those with far travels made it home safely!
Well, I've been able to do a lot of thinking over the past week. I really enjoyed camp this year, i felt like i was more calm about stuff and was able to comprehend more of the messages that were being sent out. For those of you who do not know, i attend a church camp in Romeo, Michigan every summer for a week. I have met some of my best friends there and have been finding a little more of myself each year.
Well, before i left for camp, the sound of my mom's voice use to make me feel sick. I didn't really understand, but everytime she talked to me i would just leave the house and go drive.
I also use to depend on my brother to be my crutch, even though God should've been there instead. My brother isn't going to be there for every decision i make. I've realized i need to trust God and myself more and make better decisions. Then, there was a sermon about forgiveness. I guess this is one of the hardest things to deal with. I made a list of all the people i don't like or have problems with and i decided to pray for them and make the gaps between us smaller. I keep finding new people to add to the list, but i cant wait to start crossing people off. I'm sick of living my life angry. I'm tired of gossiping. I think I'll write my papa a letter tomorrow.
I know this is one of the harder periods in my life because i'm not too old, not too young. I guess we as teenagers don't really have a spot in this world. I'm willing to break through these walls and be the person i use to be. I going to change my ways a little, and care about others a little more, too. I apologize to those who i had to step on when i fell of the path.
Well, i told my mom on the way home about how i was feeling and if she had noticed. She said she did and that it hurt to watch me leave the house when we would fight, but she had faith i would come back. I hope this phase ends here, i don't have the money to pay for the gas or the heart to keep fighting the same argument.
Hopefully i can set up an appointment for Joe and I to get our hair cut, soon. I have a doctor appointment tomorrow and on tuesday i'm going to the SWITCHFOOT concert in Jackson! Then later in the week i'll be going college hunting, visiting with Tim Leach and Colleen Yancy(::fingers crossed::), and taking Capers to church! Well, I'm off to bed. My prayers are with you, and i hope all those with far travels made it home safely!