what is becoming of me?
so i let myself think things are getting better, and i thought they were, but honestly, i just dont know anymore. things will be fine for hours or a few days on end..only to be halted by a new harsh reality. im burdened by the fact that a few people know to little and some know too much. this is going to get me into trouble and i dont want to face it. i dont like dealing with the emotions i do day in and day out because it is a whirlwind. passion and love and desire consume me and drive the pain away, make me forget about how i am pretty disappointed in you..and you dont even seem to fucking care. your habits scare me truthfully and i want to see them change. i love you but im pretty upset and i should not be feeling like your lifestyle is the result of me because i guess i cause too much stress. rage takes over me sometimes, a rage that ive never known, a rage that i dont know the root of. somehow i have to kill the rage kill the pain can someone help me do this? i know ive made a lot of mistakes this summer, but i need, want, have to stop this cycle of emotions. i dont like being this.