Thoughts and whispers
Life at the moment consists of work, video games, take out pizza, and Buffy. I am quite happy with that, and though there may be a chance I am neglecting my social life, I'm going through one of those phases where I don't really miss it that much. I reckon life itself is often stressful enough and the majority of people usually make it more so.
It is also part of trying to remove myself from uni life I suppose. Especially now with all the freshers around, I can see myself getting really depressed because I can't go back to that. Its probably also the case that I will likely have nothing in common with people so significantly younger than me. All of this just ends up making me more aware of how I am rather than being any sort of comment on other people. I have just got to a point where I don't really know what I want, in life or elsewhere. This is not simply a matter of decision making, since there really isn't a decision to make. I've done pretty much what I was supposed to, finished school, finished uni, got a job. Everything from know on involves knowing rather than just choosing.
I get the feeling thats where the majority of people get it wrong. They settle for what they have or what they can get simply because they don't know what they want. The reason for that is that some things fall beyond the idea of the unattainable, or the unfeasible, and are simply just unknown or fearful to us. Thankfully, I am quite content just being for the time being, and I can but hope that meaning will come to what I do eventually.