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lately ive had this desire to just peace out for a while. i would really like to just go abroad to work, volunteer, teach or whatever. rob and i have always talked about our plans to travel together, but i have this urge to just get up and go. i feel like there is a lot i want to experience and i want to have a personal journey since i will be out of college and have the time to spend reflecting on life and what my future holds.
the only thing is that i need to pay off some money before any of this can become reality. ive been thinking about the peace corps, they defer student loans and then send you home wiht a nest egg so that is something that could work out really well......just have to pay off the rents first and get my own little nest egg going before i could do it.
i feel guilty that i want to leave everyone (mostly rob). maybe not guilty, but selfish. but then again, this is my life and i think that we all own the power to create our own destinies...i dont feel like ive given myself the opportunity yet to travel or explore, i need a 'coming to self' experience.....most of my friends have had some sort of study abroad experience or major self travel/journey and i really want that self growth experience.
not that im unhappy, but that i dont feel satisfied with whats going on right now in my life, or what my 6 month future holds. there is a lot i want to do and become and i believe that this sort of experience is what i need to develop myself into who i want to become and it will not only teach me about myself, but who i can become...
if anything, the economy is shit so i might as well hold off on entering the job force for a while haha.....
any thoughts? questions, comments and concerns encouraged!!!! i need some advice!!!
the only thing is that i need to pay off some money before any of this can become reality. ive been thinking about the peace corps, they defer student loans and then send you home wiht a nest egg so that is something that could work out really well......just have to pay off the rents first and get my own little nest egg going before i could do it.
i feel guilty that i want to leave everyone (mostly rob). maybe not guilty, but selfish. but then again, this is my life and i think that we all own the power to create our own destinies...i dont feel like ive given myself the opportunity yet to travel or explore, i need a 'coming to self' experience.....most of my friends have had some sort of study abroad experience or major self travel/journey and i really want that self growth experience.
not that im unhappy, but that i dont feel satisfied with whats going on right now in my life, or what my 6 month future holds. there is a lot i want to do and become and i believe that this sort of experience is what i need to develop myself into who i want to become and it will not only teach me about myself, but who i can become...
if anything, the economy is shit so i might as well hold off on entering the job force for a while haha.....
any thoughts? questions, comments and concerns encouraged!!!! i need some advice!!!