idleness
ugh, writing in here simple because I don't know what to add to my german paper, which is now due in 1:15, its aggravating I can't really focus on it much right now thoughts drifting elsewhere. That elsewhere is my movie project for the summer (which is real close) I'm now strongly considering other people to use on the creative end, my first choice of coarse is adri, but I'm gonna try to get a definitive answer out of her soon of weather or not she wants to be involved, if not, i'll just pull some other people, it should be a no big issue and defiantly something that shouldn't stop the thing. This year needs to be over, got just some small and large things and then that will be it. I'm hoping next year will be a little more interesting that this year, since the start of this calender year nothing interesting has happened, literally nothing and I want more in my life next year, actual real things not just filler, like I feel I'm stuck with right now. I'm not sure quite how I'll go about it, but I really don't want my senior year to be one long coast into college (and by coast i mean academic uphill battle, fucking 3 ap courses) Idk, I might have to go out and actively try to get more. I need some questions answered, the shitty part is I can't ask the questions and only hope that its that question that is answered. Things and people that shouldn't still be an issue are and as much as love to just say "FUCK OFF" and walk away from it all, I think it would hurt me more in the long term, or not and im just wasting my emotional energy on it, or it could just be exhaustion from all the cram in the end and will go away in two or so weeks?