Things are changing a lot

[pidgeonspit]

But sort of not really? I feel like I'm the only one that's changing, and that I'm mostly struggling to contain this internal change. What is it? I'm not entirely sure but I'm just very different. I'm finding a new direction I think. I'm starting to realize some fears and to truly realize the immense impact that fear has had on my life, actions, and being for the last...beginning and duration of my life. And I've been harsh on myself in an attempt to not only realize this reality but to do away with it. So many things I've done do and said say have been are motivated by FEAR. The problem I guess is that there are vestiges and habits and most importantly people that I care about that have been here all along and may be here because they helped make my fear or are vitally attached to my fear. So I am working on compassion and patience too, but this is harder. because I'm young and have the potential to be a lot better. I hope you catch on soon.
This doesn't make sense, but I don't even give a fuck. Hi, livejournal.