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I really wish sometimes I could just shut off my freaking mind.I'm so confused right now.M told me to call him last night and to message him on myspace when I got home so he knew I made it home safely.He's read the messages and hasn't replied.Now I don't know if I should just go ahead and call him like he asked me to or just wait and see if he messages me.I'm so confused.I'm not trying to fall in love or be in a relationship with him.I think he's a really awesome,sweet guy and I would like to remain friends with him.I don't want to seem like I want more than that and I don't want him to think I'm an obsessed stalker.Gahhh why is it so hard for me to figure out what guys really want????Yeah,we had sex but I'm not ready for another relationship.Right now I'm getting my health under control and losing more weight.My goal right now is to lose 19 pounds.Which shouldn't be too hard.I'm broke and I only have enough bus fare to meet my jerkfaced ex at the storage place to get my stuff.I've been sweeping the garage and parking lot.I hope that at least helps some.I need to get over my bagel and cream cheese obsession.LOL I could just eat cream cheese plain.Thats kinda sick ain't it?LMAO.I need to start eating less carbs.I've been drinking more water and cutting back on soda alot.I used to drink a 2 liter every day.Now I only drink 2 2 liters a month.I've been drinking alot of ice water with lemon juice.Lemon juice is a natural diuretic,which means it makes you pee.I also have the Lasix pills which make you pee.I usually only take them once a week rather than 3 pills a day.You can actually mess up your body by peeing out electro lytes and potassium.And that folks was your health lesson for today.Don't you feel smarter?? LOL In other news.I downloaded Morpheus so now I have a bunch more Wednesday 13 anMurderdolls songs.I also downloaded Jeffree Star and The Medic Droid and Combichrist.