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I'm leaving the 7th.
To go into the army.
To be psychological operations.
I think I might enter active duty.
Why not, I haven't really got anything big to come home to.
I'm not going to be anybody if I stay here,
but I don't want to go out there and fail like so many people in my family.
I don't want to leave my brother and sister.
Or any of my friends.
How am I supposed to say goodbye to this place?
It's where everything i've ever known has taken place.
It's where i met my best friends, and my enemies.
.. How am I supposed to say goodbye to jovi?
How am I supposed to say goodbye to Shelby and Jessamyn?
I have been there for Shelby for so long.
When her and chelsea fought all the time, I always went to make sure she was alright. She's like my little sister. She's someone i've looked out for for years. For years and years and years.
Things got so fucked up in the end.
In the worst possible way.
I've lost so many more things that I honestly, deeply, truly care about.
So many people that have helped me make it here, where i'm sitting.
Chelsea... Oh man, i don't even know where to start with her.
Fucking 10 years i've known that girl.
Ten years i've spent almost every day with her.
Ten years of bullshit and drama and Hysteria, that we stuck together through.
And now, in the end.. the times where we should be tighter than ever,
we just sorta fell apart.
Maybe it's easier to deal with things that way.
I miss her.
Straight up.
Jarryd means everythign to me right now. He's really the only thing I have left here.
Where am I going to end up?
I'm scared shitless.
Of everything.
Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed on an equal or greater benefit.
.......... Napoleon Hill
To go into the army.
To be psychological operations.
I think I might enter active duty.
Why not, I haven't really got anything big to come home to.
I'm not going to be anybody if I stay here,
but I don't want to go out there and fail like so many people in my family.
I don't want to leave my brother and sister.
Or any of my friends.
How am I supposed to say goodbye to this place?
It's where everything i've ever known has taken place.
It's where i met my best friends, and my enemies.
.. How am I supposed to say goodbye to jovi?
How am I supposed to say goodbye to Shelby and Jessamyn?
I have been there for Shelby for so long.
When her and chelsea fought all the time, I always went to make sure she was alright. She's like my little sister. She's someone i've looked out for for years. For years and years and years.
Things got so fucked up in the end.
In the worst possible way.
I've lost so many more things that I honestly, deeply, truly care about.
So many people that have helped me make it here, where i'm sitting.
Chelsea... Oh man, i don't even know where to start with her.
Fucking 10 years i've known that girl.
Ten years i've spent almost every day with her.
Ten years of bullshit and drama and Hysteria, that we stuck together through.
And now, in the end.. the times where we should be tighter than ever,
we just sorta fell apart.
Maybe it's easier to deal with things that way.
I miss her.
Straight up.
Jarryd means everythign to me right now. He's really the only thing I have left here.
Where am I going to end up?
I'm scared shitless.
Of everything.
Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed on an equal or greater benefit.
.......... Napoleon Hill