so emotional
I feel bad today. I miss Josh a lot. We sent each other text messages today. I still feel empty. I have no idea why. We went out to eat the other night and he didn't pay for me. I asked him why he was hanging out with me if he wasn't supposed to. He said oh well. He said I have to wait 3 years or for him to quit working at blockbuster before I date him. Whichever comes first. I just want to be around him. I don't know what's so great about him. How can some people have casual sex and date whomever? Why can't I be like that? I can't get a serious relationship anyway. I might as well sleep around.