I'm sick of people and their bullshit relationships...
So, I hung out with Samantha today because she is leaving soon. She told me that she cheated on her husband. I know he's cheated on her and broken her heart, but deal with it or divorce him. Don't cheat on him too. It's so ridiculous how inconsiderate people are. She has a husband working hard and supporting her and 3 children. She was bored, so she cheated on him. I can't even get one guy to send me text messages. I mean, he does, but I still feel so distant. I just want him to hold me. I don't even know why I'm sad. Maybe, I'm just tired. I'm tired of trying and chasing guys and nothing happening. I'm tired of waking up every single day listening to other couples' problems and seeing them make out. What the motherfucking fuck is wrong with ME? Why can't I have that? Why the fuck don't I deserve it? If it won't make me happy, let me find out for my fucking self. I KNOW me and Josh would work. But, there's always something. ALWAYS! I can never win with guys. I get everything EVERYTHING I want except for guys