single life
So, as I watched "Sex and the City" tonight, I realized once again that most men just want sex. Carrie met this great guy from France and took him out for a day of fun. That night, she told him she had a rule that she didn't sleep with men on the first date. She broke her rule and slept with him. The next morning, she found an envelope with 1000 dollars in it. He paid her for sex and had left the country.
Just a few minutes ago, I got an invitation to a hotel on Monday. I hate men. I met him on a dating site and we started talking last week. I don't understand how you get "fuck buddy" from a dating site. Jon and I have never had cyber sex or anything like that. We talk about it. But, not actually having it. I'll ask him weird and random questions about it.
I decided what to name my children if I ever had them. My daughter would be called Anais and my son would be called Zechariah. But, I guess I won't be having any children seeing that I never have sex or can't get a boyfriend. I did, however, find this website last night called interracialcupid.com and it had a really hot white guy that lives in south Florida and he likes black women. That probably means he's been with his share of latins and such. I wish I could find more like him. I don't know if he just wants black women to sleep with or if he's really attracted to them. I'm not trying to get married. I just want a boyfriend. I don't want "the one." i just want someone that will treat me with respect. I don't know if it's respect, but someone that sees me as something more than sex. I don't even think I'm "sexually attractive." How can men want sex so much and not want to reproduce? I hate life!
Second, I can't find a job in this hellhole. I've been trying for the whole year. I have a job where I work 2 fucking days a week. What kind of shit is that? My credit isn't good enough to work at a bank. I can't get a better full-time job anywhere because I don't have a degree. I don't know what to do anymore. I have a car payment and a cellphone bill. My cell just got turned off. I just don't know....
Just a few minutes ago, I got an invitation to a hotel on Monday. I hate men. I met him on a dating site and we started talking last week. I don't understand how you get "fuck buddy" from a dating site. Jon and I have never had cyber sex or anything like that. We talk about it. But, not actually having it. I'll ask him weird and random questions about it.
I decided what to name my children if I ever had them. My daughter would be called Anais and my son would be called Zechariah. But, I guess I won't be having any children seeing that I never have sex or can't get a boyfriend. I did, however, find this website last night called interracialcupid.com and it had a really hot white guy that lives in south Florida and he likes black women. That probably means he's been with his share of latins and such. I wish I could find more like him. I don't know if he just wants black women to sleep with or if he's really attracted to them. I'm not trying to get married. I just want a boyfriend. I don't want "the one." i just want someone that will treat me with respect. I don't know if it's respect, but someone that sees me as something more than sex. I don't even think I'm "sexually attractive." How can men want sex so much and not want to reproduce? I hate life!
Second, I can't find a job in this hellhole. I've been trying for the whole year. I have a job where I work 2 fucking days a week. What kind of shit is that? My credit isn't good enough to work at a bank. I can't get a better full-time job anywhere because I don't have a degree. I don't know what to do anymore. I have a car payment and a cellphone bill. My cell just got turned off. I just don't know....