This is just to let you know...
... that yes, I'm better than that last entry. Mood's been all weird in the last few days. Tuesday it was sort of lurking, Wed. morning it attacked full-on, Thursday the tides went out but I kept an eye on the shoreline, and Friday (today) it's been mysteriously in absentia (Thank you!). So ... brains.
(There's still stuff that I can't let me think about; at night, especially, it's very easy to get into vicious-loop-type-thoughts. I have been avoiding them by judicious application of storythoughts. Whatever good that does.)
This weeks' had enough stuff to help keep my branes going, though, which is good: class as usual, with dinners, skypes, and activities I schedule with precisely business in mind. I was going to have drinks with a semifriend (one of those people who's just on the line of "you're fun to hang out with but I just don't feel close enough/just don't trust you enough/just don't like you enough/just don't wanna/etc. This case, it's trust, definitely, and also reliability issues, which are big with a Pico) this evening, but, with an 8.30 appointment, he cancels at 8.23, telling me he juSt got un-hungover and can we tomorrow?
guurl
It's like I've grown up a little bit since last semester, or perhaps grown angrier, or grown less patient, or juSt grown. At any rate, I knew about this particular's unreliability from last semester, and was almost expecting a cancellation during the day, but not in the evening. It's funny: I'm not hurt like I would be if a real friend did this. I'm just irrirated. I am not surprised, either, but sort of "well, you would, wouldn't you?"
So I went with that most classic of boy-replies: the inscrutable, undecipherable "K."
:D
In other news, I fielded a real helluva conversation today. No details, since it's work, but let's just say it was a success and I am pleased, and also: In Which Pico Learns More Things She Can Never Put On Her Resume.
Had some lovely talks with my parents this eve, which was nice. Am going to call a few more friends just to say hi, check in with my brothy, and then ... who knows? clean things? go out anyway? we'll see.
Tomorrow I have checked the weather and am planning one of my Explorations. I should tell Ye Of The LJ about those, huh? ANON :D
(There's still stuff that I can't let me think about; at night, especially, it's very easy to get into vicious-loop-type-thoughts. I have been avoiding them by judicious application of storythoughts. Whatever good that does.)
This weeks' had enough stuff to help keep my branes going, though, which is good: class as usual, with dinners, skypes, and activities I schedule with precisely business in mind. I was going to have drinks with a semifriend (one of those people who's just on the line of "you're fun to hang out with but I just don't feel close enough/just don't trust you enough/just don't like you enough/just don't wanna/etc. This case, it's trust, definitely, and also reliability issues, which are big with a Pico) this evening, but, with an 8.30 appointment, he cancels at 8.23, telling me he juSt got un-hungover and can we tomorrow?
guurl
It's like I've grown up a little bit since last semester, or perhaps grown angrier, or grown less patient, or juSt grown. At any rate, I knew about this particular's unreliability from last semester, and was almost expecting a cancellation during the day, but not in the evening. It's funny: I'm not hurt like I would be if a real friend did this. I'm just irrirated. I am not surprised, either, but sort of "well, you would, wouldn't you?"
So I went with that most classic of boy-replies: the inscrutable, undecipherable "K."
:D
In other news, I fielded a real helluva conversation today. No details, since it's work, but let's just say it was a success and I am pleased, and also: In Which Pico Learns More Things She Can Never Put On Her Resume.
Had some lovely talks with my parents this eve, which was nice. Am going to call a few more friends just to say hi, check in with my brothy, and then ... who knows? clean things? go out anyway? we'll see.
Tomorrow I have checked the weather and am planning one of my Explorations. I should tell Ye Of The LJ about those, huh? ANON :D