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When I'm in a good mood, I know exactly what to say, when to say it, and it all turns out awesome.
When I'm upset, I can hide it to a point, and totally ignore it around people who have nothing to do with what I'm pissed about. I'm still a pretty hospitable person to everyone.
When talking to the people I'm pissed at, my mind leaves me. I forget what I'm mad about. Sometimes they'll actually ask me if I'm mad at them. I'll say yes, give a dumb reason as to why, and then sit there in silence as they prove me wrong. Of course, it's not exactly something they can prove wrong, but they always manage to do it somehow. I wish I had the confidence of good-mood-me all the time. Maybe then I'd know what the hell I was talking about.
It seems like the people I put first are always putting me second to someone or something, while my seconds put me ahead of everything else. And I'm sick of it.
As I write this, I'm realizing what I'm doing wrong. I'm just going to be an ass tomorrow and see if it works. At the very least it'll provide some variety. Couldn't hurt, right?
When I'm upset, I can hide it to a point, and totally ignore it around people who have nothing to do with what I'm pissed about. I'm still a pretty hospitable person to everyone.
When talking to the people I'm pissed at, my mind leaves me. I forget what I'm mad about. Sometimes they'll actually ask me if I'm mad at them. I'll say yes, give a dumb reason as to why, and then sit there in silence as they prove me wrong. Of course, it's not exactly something they can prove wrong, but they always manage to do it somehow. I wish I had the confidence of good-mood-me all the time. Maybe then I'd know what the hell I was talking about.
It seems like the people I put first are always putting me second to someone or something, while my seconds put me ahead of everything else. And I'm sick of it.
As I write this, I'm realizing what I'm doing wrong. I'm just going to be an ass tomorrow and see if it works. At the very least it'll provide some variety. Couldn't hurt, right?