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Oh man...so I figure if somethings meant to be than its going to happen. Fate brings people to places, and certain people are meant to meet. But then I think that people have to take fate into their own hands and make it their destiny. So that's what I tried to do. And now all I can do is wait. But it feels like waiting is just wasteing more time. I'm going to a completely different state for like a month. That month could mean the difference between two destinys. But then again it could give the opportunity to get to know each other over the computer or other means. But in order for that to happen I have to wait. BAH IM SO FREAKIN IMPATIENT!!! It's just been a realllly long time...ha my whole life...since I've actually been scared to not see someone ever again, or at least like once a day. UGH.
In a week from now I'm going to be cruising down the strip, probably on my way back from Boston, listening to my music as loud as I want in the SOCCER MOM MINI VAN!!! I CANT WAIT TO GET HOME AND SEE YOU GUYS!!! WE'RE GONNA RAISE HELL!!!!
My brother called me from the bus on the way back from a wrestling tournament, and all the wrestlers said hi to me!!! I miss my boys so much! they just want my baked goods LOL...oh how I used to spoil them, but they're worth it.
Last time I was in a relationship, almost 4 years ago, I was young, stupid and niave and threw my entire heart and everything into it and ended up getting screwed over for my efforts. After that relationship my self confidence was shit and I thought that I was worthless because of the way he made me feel. I was really angry at myself for a very long time for letting another person make me feel like dirt on the bottom of their shoe. It took me a realllly long time to get over it, and I've always been really reluctant about having strong feelings for guys since then. I basically havent allowed myself to. But when feelings are strong enough you cant control them, believe me I have tried and tried and tried. I think thats why I'm scared sometimes. Scared to get hurt again. But I know that if I don't love someone again my life wont be complete, everyone needs love. Humans were made to have love as an emotion and it basically consumes like every waking thought, even when youre sleeping. I know that now. And I don't think I'll ever forget it. Ever.
In a week from now I'm going to be cruising down the strip, probably on my way back from Boston, listening to my music as loud as I want in the SOCCER MOM MINI VAN!!! I CANT WAIT TO GET HOME AND SEE YOU GUYS!!! WE'RE GONNA RAISE HELL!!!!
My brother called me from the bus on the way back from a wrestling tournament, and all the wrestlers said hi to me!!! I miss my boys so much! they just want my baked goods LOL...oh how I used to spoil them, but they're worth it.
Last time I was in a relationship, almost 4 years ago, I was young, stupid and niave and threw my entire heart and everything into it and ended up getting screwed over for my efforts. After that relationship my self confidence was shit and I thought that I was worthless because of the way he made me feel. I was really angry at myself for a very long time for letting another person make me feel like dirt on the bottom of their shoe. It took me a realllly long time to get over it, and I've always been really reluctant about having strong feelings for guys since then. I basically havent allowed myself to. But when feelings are strong enough you cant control them, believe me I have tried and tried and tried. I think thats why I'm scared sometimes. Scared to get hurt again. But I know that if I don't love someone again my life wont be complete, everyone needs love. Humans were made to have love as an emotion and it basically consumes like every waking thought, even when youre sleeping. I know that now. And I don't think I'll ever forget it. Ever.