a slightly more coherent update on my life.
happy september by the way
anyway...life is just so completely different than it's ever been. but different isn't all bad.
it did/does feel weird to not be going back to school. it truly does. but i think that in the long run this decision is all for the best for me...and besides I can always go back to school in a couple years. I plan to, in fact. Just once things have gotten in order.
For the most part my days consist of doing research and reading legal documents for my dad, since he's got a lot on his plate and would like a second set of eyes and a second, younger brain to go over everything for the business. And it makes sense. No one in my family has any business experience whatsoever. We're the pioneers, so we have a lot of learning to do.
But research isn't all boring and tedious paperwork. Today we started making hot dogs in the style we'll be selling. Today we had Chicago Dogs. Prior to this venture, I'd never heard of a Chicago-style dog. For those of you like me who have no idea what a chicago dog is like, it's a beef hot dog with yellow mustard, relish, diced onions, tomato wedges, a dill pickle spear, sport peppers, and a dash of celery salt on a steamed sesame seed bun. Well, we only had brown mustard, and tiny cherry tomatoes, and peproncinis(sp?). and we had pork hot dogs, and regular hot dog buns...toasted. But it was still a pretty close approximation to what an actual chicago dog is like. And I've got to say, I was quite surprised. It was really delicious. Almost like a hamburger actually...with all the different flavors blending pretty well. So when we open up (probably by november), all y'all should come down and try one...I'll even give you an awesome person discount..which you'll probably need since that's bound to be one of, if not our most expensive dogs lol.
As to the ladies situation in my life...well I've got myself into quite an interesting place right now. I think I may have found quite possibly one of the most amazing women ever. Like take how crazy/smitten I was for any other girl in my past...multiply it by at least 10...and that's a pretty conservative estimate about how crazy I am for her. And then couple onto that the fact that I've known her for all of less than a month...it's just incredible. In this short of a time we've gotten so emotionally connected...like I think only one or two other people can claim they're more connected to me..and they've known me for *years*. But there are a large amount of awkward points to take into consideration..none of which I really feel like getting into. So I wont. =) But as much as I want to just rush in and see what happens, I'm not. I'm going to tread lightly and hope I get an opportune opportunity (lolwut) to make my move.
Now in the not-so-happy news, august was not quite a very good month for my family. Actually it was really only the last 2 weeks or so of august that weren't very good. We found out that two of my mom's brothers have cancer. One of whom lives in Florida, and is fighting it. I believe he went in (or is going in) to have the cancerous part of his lung removed. He *just* celebrated his 60th birthday. or 61st. i don't exactly know. The other lives in Vermont, and we just found out the other day that he's got at most a month left to live. He had lung cancer as well. But he also had brain cancer. This past friday my parents went up to see him. I couldn't go. I mean, I know he's my family, but I've never met him. Or if I had, it was when I was <3 years old, so I don't remember...and I really don't want my first conscious memory of him to be him dying in a hospital. I just couldn't do it. Well that day they transferred him from his local hospital to a larger one and they were bringing him in for radiation to attack the cancer in his brain since that was the most life-threatening. Well as I said, we found out the other days that he was deemed untreatable so they're moving him to a hospice and trying to make him as comfortable as possible for the rest of his time. That now makes 3 out of my mom's 6 siblings to have cancer. My aunt got breast cancer a few years ago, but thankfully she caught it early enough and got great treatment and it's in remission. As morbid as this sounds, I can't stop wondering "When are we going to find out my mom has cancer?" I mean, as is her health is pretty bad. Rheumatoid arthritis, seemingly endless menopause, a bad back, bad knees, bad feet, thousands of other aches and pains. And the 36 years of smoking sure didn't help (thank god she quit). And I know how morbid that is, but the odds are definitely against her on this one. And it scares the crap out of me. As much as my mom and I have had our disagreements, I love her and I don't know how I could handle losing her. I want to see her live for another 30+ years. I want to see her beat all these health problems. I want to see her holding her grandkids.
And now this entry has gotten far more depressing than I intended. So I'm going to stop writing and try and refocus myself on the *good* stuff going on in my life/head.
Kbai
anyway...life is just so completely different than it's ever been. but different isn't all bad.
it did/does feel weird to not be going back to school. it truly does. but i think that in the long run this decision is all for the best for me...and besides I can always go back to school in a couple years. I plan to, in fact. Just once things have gotten in order.
For the most part my days consist of doing research and reading legal documents for my dad, since he's got a lot on his plate and would like a second set of eyes and a second, younger brain to go over everything for the business. And it makes sense. No one in my family has any business experience whatsoever. We're the pioneers, so we have a lot of learning to do.
But research isn't all boring and tedious paperwork. Today we started making hot dogs in the style we'll be selling. Today we had Chicago Dogs. Prior to this venture, I'd never heard of a Chicago-style dog. For those of you like me who have no idea what a chicago dog is like, it's a beef hot dog with yellow mustard, relish, diced onions, tomato wedges, a dill pickle spear, sport peppers, and a dash of celery salt on a steamed sesame seed bun. Well, we only had brown mustard, and tiny cherry tomatoes, and peproncinis(sp?). and we had pork hot dogs, and regular hot dog buns...toasted. But it was still a pretty close approximation to what an actual chicago dog is like. And I've got to say, I was quite surprised. It was really delicious. Almost like a hamburger actually...with all the different flavors blending pretty well. So when we open up (probably by november), all y'all should come down and try one...I'll even give you an awesome person discount..which you'll probably need since that's bound to be one of, if not our most expensive dogs lol.
As to the ladies situation in my life...well I've got myself into quite an interesting place right now. I think I may have found quite possibly one of the most amazing women ever. Like take how crazy/smitten I was for any other girl in my past...multiply it by at least 10...and that's a pretty conservative estimate about how crazy I am for her. And then couple onto that the fact that I've known her for all of less than a month...it's just incredible. In this short of a time we've gotten so emotionally connected...like I think only one or two other people can claim they're more connected to me..and they've known me for *years*. But there are a large amount of awkward points to take into consideration..none of which I really feel like getting into. So I wont. =) But as much as I want to just rush in and see what happens, I'm not. I'm going to tread lightly and hope I get an opportune opportunity (lolwut) to make my move.
Now in the not-so-happy news, august was not quite a very good month for my family. Actually it was really only the last 2 weeks or so of august that weren't very good. We found out that two of my mom's brothers have cancer. One of whom lives in Florida, and is fighting it. I believe he went in (or is going in) to have the cancerous part of his lung removed. He *just* celebrated his 60th birthday. or 61st. i don't exactly know. The other lives in Vermont, and we just found out the other day that he's got at most a month left to live. He had lung cancer as well. But he also had brain cancer. This past friday my parents went up to see him. I couldn't go. I mean, I know he's my family, but I've never met him. Or if I had, it was when I was <3 years old, so I don't remember...and I really don't want my first conscious memory of him to be him dying in a hospital. I just couldn't do it. Well that day they transferred him from his local hospital to a larger one and they were bringing him in for radiation to attack the cancer in his brain since that was the most life-threatening. Well as I said, we found out the other days that he was deemed untreatable so they're moving him to a hospice and trying to make him as comfortable as possible for the rest of his time. That now makes 3 out of my mom's 6 siblings to have cancer. My aunt got breast cancer a few years ago, but thankfully she caught it early enough and got great treatment and it's in remission. As morbid as this sounds, I can't stop wondering "When are we going to find out my mom has cancer?" I mean, as is her health is pretty bad. Rheumatoid arthritis, seemingly endless menopause, a bad back, bad knees, bad feet, thousands of other aches and pains. And the 36 years of smoking sure didn't help (thank god she quit). And I know how morbid that is, but the odds are definitely against her on this one. And it scares the crap out of me. As much as my mom and I have had our disagreements, I love her and I don't know how I could handle losing her. I want to see her live for another 30+ years. I want to see her beat all these health problems. I want to see her holding her grandkids.
And now this entry has gotten far more depressing than I intended. So I'm going to stop writing and try and refocus myself on the *good* stuff going on in my life/head.
Kbai