..I should probably update more than once a month...these tend to get quite long...
Anywho...
I'm pretty certain I'm having a quarter-life crisis.
Nothing really appeals to me anymore. Even the whole fraternity thing...I mean to say, I *am* enjoying it. But its not like OMG THIS IS AWESOME!!! enjoying like it was for the first month and a half or so. It's moreso of a "yea this is cool and stuff...but it's not thrilling me to the core"
Even the romantic spark in my life isn't really there. I mean, yeah, I still *like* Karen and would definitely like to date her...but I just feel..I dunno.
That's another thing. I feel as though I've run out of ways to fully express myself. Words just don't come to me anymore.
School in general just seems utterly pointless to me. I'm not learning a damn thing. I'd been getting into arguments with most of my professors on a daily basis, so I've just kinda stopped going to class since clearly my professors are so close-minded that they're not going to listen to a damn thing I really have to say. 3/4 of my philosophy classes are being taught as basically history or lit classes, which is just dumb. Well..not *dumb*. Just not what I signed up for. Or at least not what I thought I was signing up for.
I'm starting to get the distinct feeling that I'm not going to make it through another year+ of this crap.
Which then leaves me to the question of "what then?" and I honestly can't answer that. And it frightens me. It really does.
I'm pretty certain I'm having a quarter-life crisis.
Nothing really appeals to me anymore. Even the whole fraternity thing...I mean to say, I *am* enjoying it. But its not like OMG THIS IS AWESOME!!! enjoying like it was for the first month and a half or so. It's moreso of a "yea this is cool and stuff...but it's not thrilling me to the core"
Even the romantic spark in my life isn't really there. I mean, yeah, I still *like* Karen and would definitely like to date her...but I just feel..I dunno.
That's another thing. I feel as though I've run out of ways to fully express myself. Words just don't come to me anymore.
School in general just seems utterly pointless to me. I'm not learning a damn thing. I'd been getting into arguments with most of my professors on a daily basis, so I've just kinda stopped going to class since clearly my professors are so close-minded that they're not going to listen to a damn thing I really have to say. 3/4 of my philosophy classes are being taught as basically history or lit classes, which is just dumb. Well..not *dumb*. Just not what I signed up for. Or at least not what I thought I was signing up for.
I'm starting to get the distinct feeling that I'm not going to make it through another year+ of this crap.
Which then leaves me to the question of "what then?" and I honestly can't answer that. And it frightens me. It really does.