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I'm looking for a spark, something to help me lighten up...
so I thought I'd take up smoking.
A bit too literal?...maybe.
It might be indulging in a little self-destruction, just for kicks, maybe a little addiction or cancer, might lighten things up a bit.
One of my friends said it was giving in to weakness,
to go against my principles like this.
But she is quite the advocate for drugs like ecstasy and acid and more often than not drinks, in her own words "too much on the weekend". And she is also hardly a sentimental person, so according to her I'm not sure what I should be holding on to.
It is going against my principles, as I used to nag my mum incesantly about her smoking. How can one shorten their life so consciously, and for what?
As a fully conscious decision it can take quite a bit of strength to go against your principles and try new things.
Okay, smoking is hardly sky diving, or line dancing, but its all the new things I have time for right now.
It is an experiment in my view on life, many people do things dangerous to test their value of or attachment to it. Like travelling around the world on your own, or giving strangers your number etc. What is more dangerous than risking an addiction to a drug that is known to kill? I think I'm being about as brave and hardcore as time allows right now. If I could afford to go travelling on my own to dangerous countries I would, or skydiving, or whatever.
P.S. By the way, this is one of the most stupid things I think I've ever written. :)
so I thought I'd take up smoking.
A bit too literal?...maybe.
It might be indulging in a little self-destruction, just for kicks, maybe a little addiction or cancer, might lighten things up a bit.
One of my friends said it was giving in to weakness,
to go against my principles like this.
But she is quite the advocate for drugs like ecstasy and acid and more often than not drinks, in her own words "too much on the weekend". And she is also hardly a sentimental person, so according to her I'm not sure what I should be holding on to.
It is going against my principles, as I used to nag my mum incesantly about her smoking. How can one shorten their life so consciously, and for what?
As a fully conscious decision it can take quite a bit of strength to go against your principles and try new things.
Okay, smoking is hardly sky diving, or line dancing, but its all the new things I have time for right now.
It is an experiment in my view on life, many people do things dangerous to test their value of or attachment to it. Like travelling around the world on your own, or giving strangers your number etc. What is more dangerous than risking an addiction to a drug that is known to kill? I think I'm being about as brave and hardcore as time allows right now. If I could afford to go travelling on my own to dangerous countries I would, or skydiving, or whatever.
P.S. By the way, this is one of the most stupid things I think I've ever written. :)