So My World Update,
Dedicated to Mrs Beth for inspiring me to write.
It is the best feeling in the world when you can sit around and know that you don't have any thing to do for a while, nothing to think about, nothing to stress about, a quiet sense for the mind. The feeling of just being is refreshing. I wish life could have more days like this. I passed my very tough exam and my reward is freedom, well at least for a couple of days. But for tonight, I am ready to do nothing! I am thinking that a bath might fit the bill.
So it's February and soon in a couple of days it will bring the day that ever one shuns when they are single. I have it in my mind that someday I will have the perfect Valentine's day and it will have flowers, and cute little teddy bears, and even little chocolates. I am sure it will get old after a few years but since I haven't had a good track record for the V day in the past, I figure I am ready for something new. My mind changes so often, and I think that something is missing in my little world. I have filled it with too many books for too many years. Sitting on the sidelines waiting for life to happen has never been my thing. So I approach turning 24 with a fresh state of mind, I am ready to bat again.
Okay on to the good things. I am happy to report that things are going well for me here in Oregon, once you get used to the crappy weather. What am I saying? You can never really get used to something like that. I am making new friends and I have a small group of people that get to watch me stress out, freak out, and they even can handle my constant complaining. Another person was added to the little group, let's see we have Jenny, Jeff, and Ryan and the new member Rachel. She is a little sarcastic and she is a quick wit so it keeps things entertaining in our circle.
It's easier now to handle the time that passes by and in brief moments I get the feeling that more is slipping away. It has already been almost 2 months since I have been home. I miss my Mom, I miss Tasha, I miss my Brother, I miss all of you so much. The most important people in my life are always so far away and I am getting used to it. I don't like it one bit but I guess this is growing up. It's hard to imagine that my first year of pharmacy school is almost over, I only have 3 and 1/2 months left being here then I am coming home to all of you for a few months. This is the thought that keeps me getting by week to week. The thought that scares me is how much things have changed when I am gone, how much have I changed, am I even the same person anymore? Hell for that matter is anyone else? But no worries, I will keep rolling with the changes. I mean seriously, if I can do this, move away and start fresh with everything, how hard will it be to adjust back to life in phoenix. I was terrified that I would come home and be alone because everyone would have moved on with their lives. But now I am ready to embrace it. All I really want is for all of the ones I love to be happy in everything that they do. I don't mind being alone and I won't be alone forever. Starting new is kinda fun. Plus I have one hell of a safety net when things get rough.
Well this is all the time I have for now, a nice warm bath and a few episodes of friends are calling me! Much love to one and all! Take care, stay happy!
Love,
C
It is the best feeling in the world when you can sit around and know that you don't have any thing to do for a while, nothing to think about, nothing to stress about, a quiet sense for the mind. The feeling of just being is refreshing. I wish life could have more days like this. I passed my very tough exam and my reward is freedom, well at least for a couple of days. But for tonight, I am ready to do nothing! I am thinking that a bath might fit the bill.
So it's February and soon in a couple of days it will bring the day that ever one shuns when they are single. I have it in my mind that someday I will have the perfect Valentine's day and it will have flowers, and cute little teddy bears, and even little chocolates. I am sure it will get old after a few years but since I haven't had a good track record for the V day in the past, I figure I am ready for something new. My mind changes so often, and I think that something is missing in my little world. I have filled it with too many books for too many years. Sitting on the sidelines waiting for life to happen has never been my thing. So I approach turning 24 with a fresh state of mind, I am ready to bat again.
Okay on to the good things. I am happy to report that things are going well for me here in Oregon, once you get used to the crappy weather. What am I saying? You can never really get used to something like that. I am making new friends and I have a small group of people that get to watch me stress out, freak out, and they even can handle my constant complaining. Another person was added to the little group, let's see we have Jenny, Jeff, and Ryan and the new member Rachel. She is a little sarcastic and she is a quick wit so it keeps things entertaining in our circle.
It's easier now to handle the time that passes by and in brief moments I get the feeling that more is slipping away. It has already been almost 2 months since I have been home. I miss my Mom, I miss Tasha, I miss my Brother, I miss all of you so much. The most important people in my life are always so far away and I am getting used to it. I don't like it one bit but I guess this is growing up. It's hard to imagine that my first year of pharmacy school is almost over, I only have 3 and 1/2 months left being here then I am coming home to all of you for a few months. This is the thought that keeps me getting by week to week. The thought that scares me is how much things have changed when I am gone, how much have I changed, am I even the same person anymore? Hell for that matter is anyone else? But no worries, I will keep rolling with the changes. I mean seriously, if I can do this, move away and start fresh with everything, how hard will it be to adjust back to life in phoenix. I was terrified that I would come home and be alone because everyone would have moved on with their lives. But now I am ready to embrace it. All I really want is for all of the ones I love to be happy in everything that they do. I don't mind being alone and I won't be alone forever. Starting new is kinda fun. Plus I have one hell of a safety net when things get rough.
Well this is all the time I have for now, a nice warm bath and a few episodes of friends are calling me! Much love to one and all! Take care, stay happy!
Love,
C