i hate days like this when i dont wnt to wake up!
well so far everything has been ok...not good or bad just ok. since ive gotten to TN...ive been really restless...always wanting to sleep...idk sometimes i think theres something wrong with me.
questionalble symptoms:
- weird diet thing...dont eat much
- weird mood swings mostly not relly good
- havent really been happy for awhile
- everyday at least once...thinkin about not livig aka dying
- dont really have much energy to do anything
idk...its werid...but i dont know wht it is. its just weird. well idk ive been thinking ALOT ALOT ALOT lately...and ive had the most weirdest dreams lately...theres like 3 different totally stories/ plots setting people action...etc each time night...idk its just reaally odd. i dont get it. uhm my mom and sister nd i saw christmas with the kranks last night it was sooo funny...way funnier then what i wouldve thot. uhm yah i reaally miss everyone is california. its really saddending and kinda depressing. well yesterday my mom and sister went shopping for some people. yeah it was really long...i hate shopping...and esp since im not good at shopping for other people just in general...cuz i dont know if they would like it or if they would get md cuz i got someone else more...or idk...its weird and hard...but uhm it was relly interesting cuz we went at like 5 fricken clock in the morning cuz its "black friday". its soo bad out there...its like the battle of shoppping...people get vicious. its seriously crazy. but we made it. uhm im gone
questionalble symptoms:
- weird diet thing...dont eat much
- weird mood swings mostly not relly good
- havent really been happy for awhile
- everyday at least once...thinkin about not livig aka dying
- dont really have much energy to do anything
idk...its werid...but i dont know wht it is. its just weird. well idk ive been thinking ALOT ALOT ALOT lately...and ive had the most weirdest dreams lately...theres like 3 different totally stories/ plots setting people action...etc each time night...idk its just reaally odd. i dont get it. uhm my mom and sister nd i saw christmas with the kranks last night it was sooo funny...way funnier then what i wouldve thot. uhm yah i reaally miss everyone is california. its really saddending and kinda depressing. well yesterday my mom and sister went shopping for some people. yeah it was really long...i hate shopping...and esp since im not good at shopping for other people just in general...cuz i dont know if they would like it or if they would get md cuz i got someone else more...or idk...its weird and hard...but uhm it was relly interesting cuz we went at like 5 fricken clock in the morning cuz its "black friday". its soo bad out there...its like the battle of shoppping...people get vicious. its seriously crazy. but we made it. uhm im gone