Nails for breakfast
This one week holiday has been too weird. I want it to be longer and I want it to just be over at the same time. I haven't had one completely 100% happy joyful day all week. Either I'm mad at my mom, or my friends or my boyfriend, but I just haven't had ONE perfectly happy day. Ugh. I feel like I haven't really been able to rest as much as I would've liked to and I also feel like I still need to get a lot of work done before monday.
Today I feel like crying and screaming... but hey, I've felt like this almost all week, it's a familiar feeling now.
Boo.
I feel a whirlwind of thoughts and I try to put them down in words but I just can't!!!!!! I hate feeling like this, I wanted this week to be so much different than it turned out to be.. God laughs about our plans... I hate that it is so true.
So now I have to get dressed and feel good so I can go to a family thing and try to have fun. Of course this would be easier if there were anyone remotely close to my age in my family, but I'm the youngest by far and it's so boring :(
I wish I could just dance or watch sex and the city or play videogames and laugh and forget about everything else... for hours and hours.
Bittersweet....
Today I feel like crying and screaming... but hey, I've felt like this almost all week, it's a familiar feeling now.
Boo.
I feel a whirlwind of thoughts and I try to put them down in words but I just can't!!!!!! I hate feeling like this, I wanted this week to be so much different than it turned out to be.. God laughs about our plans... I hate that it is so true.
So now I have to get dressed and feel good so I can go to a family thing and try to have fun. Of course this would be easier if there were anyone remotely close to my age in my family, but I'm the youngest by far and it's so boring :(
I wish I could just dance or watch sex and the city or play videogames and laugh and forget about everything else... for hours and hours.
Bittersweet....