retardedness
I really am a social retard. I still struggled with cues and hints and other social cues.
On Thursday, after being at uni most of the day and going to the 'coming out by candelight' event that Jane organised (which was quite good :)) we were thinking of going out, but instead we went to the Ashwood house again. I had a pretty good time except when I got annoyed with Owen in the safeway carpark and then had people yell homophobic slogans at me from a random car and then come back again and throw something wet at me (THAT's why I was pissed off when we got back to the house) I was wearing a pink hat at the time, but I still didn't apprecaite it or deserve it. I hurt my foot at some point, but I don't remember how (yes I was drinking, I had more twists and then two shots of Midori with Oscar)
I just wonder, when is it ok to kiss someone, is there anyway to know? Nothing really happened or came up or anything, but I'm such a retard I don't kow what to do. I did see Trent at o-week though (*cough* wanker), even though I'm still pissed off at him for what he said about me, I decided to be nice as since I haven't seen him for ages, being pissed off would be out of nowhere and there were otehr people there too. Seeing him got me thinking about it. I wonder if people see me as this weirdo that no one really wants around (like Alan) and that no one really wants to be round and if I was to like them, they'd freak. I also wonder how my friends sleep with each other sometimes and why I never get the chance, it's very confusing and doesn't really make sense.
In better news, I said something bout being happy and Andy said 'yeah you are now, it's so cool!' or something like that, that made me smile :):)
On Thursday, after being at uni most of the day and going to the 'coming out by candelight' event that Jane organised (which was quite good :)) we were thinking of going out, but instead we went to the Ashwood house again. I had a pretty good time except when I got annoyed with Owen in the safeway carpark and then had people yell homophobic slogans at me from a random car and then come back again and throw something wet at me (THAT's why I was pissed off when we got back to the house) I was wearing a pink hat at the time, but I still didn't apprecaite it or deserve it. I hurt my foot at some point, but I don't remember how (yes I was drinking, I had more twists and then two shots of Midori with Oscar)
I just wonder, when is it ok to kiss someone, is there anyway to know? Nothing really happened or came up or anything, but I'm such a retard I don't kow what to do. I did see Trent at o-week though (*cough* wanker), even though I'm still pissed off at him for what he said about me, I decided to be nice as since I haven't seen him for ages, being pissed off would be out of nowhere and there were otehr people there too. Seeing him got me thinking about it. I wonder if people see me as this weirdo that no one really wants around (like Alan) and that no one really wants to be round and if I was to like them, they'd freak. I also wonder how my friends sleep with each other sometimes and why I never get the chance, it's very confusing and doesn't really make sense.
In better news, I said something bout being happy and Andy said 'yeah you are now, it's so cool!' or something like that, that made me smile :):)