Girls, just wanna have fun
Okay, Can I say that I officially have some of the BEST FRIENDS EVER!!! You see, yesterday was a HARD day for me, and it would be for most people, however, my friends came through like no other. Yes, they took me to tumbleweed, and Fourth street live, got me drunk (however, it wasn't terrible drunk, cause as you see, I'm fuctioning today), and basically, made me forget what was going on in my life, and helped me think about other stuff.
I know that I'm not over Jeff, and probably won't be for a while, cause hell, that's 6 YEARS and plus, one of those years was ENGAGEMENT! BUT, I think that with hearing everyone's advice, knowing my own emotions inside, I'm glad that it DID happen now, compared to ANOTHER year later, or even AFTER we were married. However, I DO wish that he had done this BEFORE her proposed to me, but that could be asking for too much. Anyways, I have come to the conclusion that if something changed between him and me within a month, then MAYBE, we could get back together and be happy, however, I'm not going to wait around on him months and years. If this was the first time this shit had happened, it might be different, but this is the SECOND time and practically, over the same shit. I'm just tired of it, and I don't want to go through this again. So, even though it is going to kill me, I don't think that after a month, I will, or would take him back. I don't know if I could ever trust him again.
Also, when it comes to the friendship issue, after listening to people last night, I think that it IS possible to have some sort of a relationship with Jeff, just not anytime soon. It's to fresh and complicated for me to even WANT to deal with that, plus, I don't think either of us are ready to hear about the others personal life...and I know that would get brought up. So...I think a friendship MIGHT be possible, but that is going to take time.
Right now, I'm leaving everything in God's hands, and if he wants us to be together, we will...if not, then, I guess it was just meant for us to be friends. I just hope that whatever God has instored for me, he lets me know a LITTLE hint about it, cause right now, I do feel lost! We shall see!
I know that I'm not over Jeff, and probably won't be for a while, cause hell, that's 6 YEARS and plus, one of those years was ENGAGEMENT! BUT, I think that with hearing everyone's advice, knowing my own emotions inside, I'm glad that it DID happen now, compared to ANOTHER year later, or even AFTER we were married. However, I DO wish that he had done this BEFORE her proposed to me, but that could be asking for too much. Anyways, I have come to the conclusion that if something changed between him and me within a month, then MAYBE, we could get back together and be happy, however, I'm not going to wait around on him months and years. If this was the first time this shit had happened, it might be different, but this is the SECOND time and practically, over the same shit. I'm just tired of it, and I don't want to go through this again. So, even though it is going to kill me, I don't think that after a month, I will, or would take him back. I don't know if I could ever trust him again.
Also, when it comes to the friendship issue, after listening to people last night, I think that it IS possible to have some sort of a relationship with Jeff, just not anytime soon. It's to fresh and complicated for me to even WANT to deal with that, plus, I don't think either of us are ready to hear about the others personal life...and I know that would get brought up. So...I think a friendship MIGHT be possible, but that is going to take time.
Right now, I'm leaving everything in God's hands, and if he wants us to be together, we will...if not, then, I guess it was just meant for us to be friends. I just hope that whatever God has instored for me, he lets me know a LITTLE hint about it, cause right now, I do feel lost! We shall see!