What does everything mean?

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As some of you know, and some of you don't...I AM a christian person, and even though I don't go to church like I SHOULD (although, here lately, I think that I REALLY need to get back involved) I think that we are ALL being tested everyday. Well, as of late, I think I'm being tested alot, both personally and professionally. I love Jeff, but as some of you may know, we have our issues, but, that still hasn't stopped us from wanting to spend the rest of our lives together (by the way, we've talked, and it's going to be sometime In MAY 2008, so, keep your ears posted for the EXACT date). But, I think that my morals and values get tested as well. My mom brought me up in the church...for the longest time, I wanted to stay a virgin till I got married. Honestly, after I lost my virginity, I felt like such a sinner, however, now that I am marrying the ONLY person that I've ever been with, it doesn't seem entirely bad. For a girl in this day and time, to say that I've only been with ONE person, that's a HELL of a thing! I'm very proud of myself for that. But I'm getting tested professionally because of all the drama that goes on at Joes...that place just sucks. As far as friends goes, I have awesome friends...I just wish that I could see some of them more. I really miss my friendship with Davis, Arayna, and of course Becca. I just need to get back in touch I believe with my roots and things will start getting better.

So, here is something that I use to do all the time, end my REAL diary entries with a prayer:
Dear God,
Thank you for all of the many blessings that you have given me...it's just right now, I really NEED strength...I'm being tested and you and ONLY you can help me right now. Please forgive me for all of the sins that I have done and again, thank you for the blessings.
In HIS name I pray,
AMEN~