*sigh*
"May angels lead you in
Hear you me, my friend"
so my grandfather is gone. for good. its one of those things where i just feel numb to the whole thing. honestly i havent talked to him or seen him in about 2 years. he just got really old and his alzheimers was just too bad. it wasnt worth it. but now that hes gone? now its worth it. i would kill to have that time back. my pop is gone. 3 of my grandparents are gone.
"When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?"
he was my grandfather. my dad's father. i didnt know him well enough and im not happy about that. i was always closer with my moms parents. i should have been closer with him. i miss him already. is this what happens when you get older? people just die? i dont like it. he would have been 88 next month. and now hes fuckin gone. gone. i cant even fathom that yet. i mean what do i do? the last time a grandparent of mine died was when i was 10 years old. i couldnt really understand the whole situation then. now i am 20 and i know exactly whats going on. i knew he wasnt in good shape and that something was going to happen eventually. i knew he was going to die. i knew he was pretty much done for. but why? why must this happen? last year it was bobby and this year its my pop. i cant deal with this. theres too much other stuff to be worrying about. i cant do it. its just too much. i hate funerals. i hate viewings. i hate death. why?
"Lights will guide you home"
goodbye pop...
1.9.1919 - 12.9.2006
Hear you me, my friend"
so my grandfather is gone. for good. its one of those things where i just feel numb to the whole thing. honestly i havent talked to him or seen him in about 2 years. he just got really old and his alzheimers was just too bad. it wasnt worth it. but now that hes gone? now its worth it. i would kill to have that time back. my pop is gone. 3 of my grandparents are gone.
"When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?"
he was my grandfather. my dad's father. i didnt know him well enough and im not happy about that. i was always closer with my moms parents. i should have been closer with him. i miss him already. is this what happens when you get older? people just die? i dont like it. he would have been 88 next month. and now hes fuckin gone. gone. i cant even fathom that yet. i mean what do i do? the last time a grandparent of mine died was when i was 10 years old. i couldnt really understand the whole situation then. now i am 20 and i know exactly whats going on. i knew he wasnt in good shape and that something was going to happen eventually. i knew he was going to die. i knew he was pretty much done for. but why? why must this happen? last year it was bobby and this year its my pop. i cant deal with this. theres too much other stuff to be worrying about. i cant do it. its just too much. i hate funerals. i hate viewings. i hate death. why?
"Lights will guide you home"
goodbye pop...
1.9.1919 - 12.9.2006