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So what happened to the shy?
Lately, I've been very very precocious: going up to people I don't know and asking what they're doing and not having any problem with it (I saw a guy working on a TV thing in the modern languages building basement - his door was open - so I asked him what he was working on), talking to people about projects and such when I don't even know their names (like today when MUS302 got cancelled - started talking to a lady in the class who had actually worked in the industry because I'm kind of lost on my project) volunteering to do things that I've never done before with the intention of figuring it out along the way (UATV crew), offering to do things that I just haven't been known to do (hand massage anyone?) in a medium that makes me very uncomfortable (general physical touch).
On top of it, my mouth has opened up and I'm saying things that I think, but generally don't say (I actually can make a sexual innuendo, thank you very much - but there's more too it). While it's fine and good with me - 'cause I'm sick of keeping my mouth shut - I'm wondering when the first open mouth, insert foot incident is going to happen.
And no, the Mass Choir isn't the first "corrupting" influence I've run into - that process has been going on for 5 years. Really, "corruption" is such a poor term for it - I don't curse, I don't do stupid things, I do my work, I enjoy my time with my friends, and I can sometimes crack a joke (my only anxiety is that I have the capacity to be very pointed and critical, outisde of joking around - to the point where I actually hurt someone - if it filters into the joking - well, yeah.)
The nice, always optimistic, extremely goofy, and somewhat nonsensical me is only the surface of multiple layers - which are being brought out by getting to do/having to do different things (composing and practicing full time, the TV station, thinking up stories and bouncing them off other people, dance accompaniment, liking guys . . . a lot has happened this semester).
Lately, I've been very very precocious: going up to people I don't know and asking what they're doing and not having any problem with it (I saw a guy working on a TV thing in the modern languages building basement - his door was open - so I asked him what he was working on), talking to people about projects and such when I don't even know their names (like today when MUS302 got cancelled - started talking to a lady in the class who had actually worked in the industry because I'm kind of lost on my project) volunteering to do things that I've never done before with the intention of figuring it out along the way (UATV crew), offering to do things that I just haven't been known to do (hand massage anyone?) in a medium that makes me very uncomfortable (general physical touch).
On top of it, my mouth has opened up and I'm saying things that I think, but generally don't say (I actually can make a sexual innuendo, thank you very much - but there's more too it). While it's fine and good with me - 'cause I'm sick of keeping my mouth shut - I'm wondering when the first open mouth, insert foot incident is going to happen.
And no, the Mass Choir isn't the first "corrupting" influence I've run into - that process has been going on for 5 years. Really, "corruption" is such a poor term for it - I don't curse, I don't do stupid things, I do my work, I enjoy my time with my friends, and I can sometimes crack a joke (my only anxiety is that I have the capacity to be very pointed and critical, outisde of joking around - to the point where I actually hurt someone - if it filters into the joking - well, yeah.)
The nice, always optimistic, extremely goofy, and somewhat nonsensical me is only the surface of multiple layers - which are being brought out by getting to do/having to do different things (composing and practicing full time, the TV station, thinking up stories and bouncing them off other people, dance accompaniment, liking guys . . . a lot has happened this semester).