how do things get so fucked up
ok, so...
things are just getting more and more complicated:
Greg wants to stay together even when he moves back to wales
I want to stay together, but I don't think it is for the right reasons.
Part of the deal is that we have to visit eachother, making the trip to wales and to america at least once within a year.
I don't know if i can afford to go to wales, told greg this but he insists on paying for me to come there. My feministic self will not allow this, but at the same time i am so tempted just to get a practically free trip to wales. He says that he has money saved up, and that he makes around $46,000 a year because he is a full time drywaller and he could afford it. what is funny is lucy i told this to and she doesn't believe it because she says that he is from the valley part of wales and people there are usually poor. i don't think that he is lying, but the thing is, who the fuck cares how much money he has? the thing is, if how much money he made mattered to me i wouldn't still really be with him. although he has bought me a ton of shit here and just seems to be showering me with gifts, grr. lucy thinks that he is trying to buy me into staying his girlfriend, and i must admit it is working a little bit. but the thing is there is nothing really bad about the relationship at all. nothing what so ever even though he may be a little clingy at some times. god, i don't want to give up on this long distance relationship like everyone thinks i should just because zach gave up. i know that is what it comes down to, zach gave up and now i am trying to prove him wrong. i mean imagine if i stayed together with the welshman all of these years and ended up marrying him and said to zach, see bastard, it could work you were just the asshole who let something go. aaahhh!!!!
i just have so many thoughts in my head. also i want to study abroad next semester, and my english friends are trying to get me to come to england. it would be 4 hours from where greg is, maybe 3. but the thing is i want to go to either spain, costa rica, mexico, or cuba. a spanish speaking country. the only option i am going to give myself is to go to spain if i want to, and then visit greg from there making it more affordable. i refuse to let him pay for me. now, not saying that i am going to spain just to be closer to him, but it is cool because then i can see all of my english friends and visit my little welsh girl lucy when she is home for new years or something and when she is home in april.
god this is so complicated. lucy says that i don't really like greg because before i said it was just a sex thing, but i am not sure if it is. the thing is i can't tell if i really like him or if it is just in my head.
I'm sorry for judging camille, because it is so tempting to just run off with a guy when he promises you everything. not saying i am moving to wales or greg is offering anything like that, but i mean come on - a free trip to wales is basically what he is giving me. come on
on a lighter note-
i was sent the other day to look for stripe paint. i thought my boss meant striping paint for roads, but he meant paint thta is a striped patter with colors. went all over the resort on a wild goose chase, just to come back to the office with a group of laughing middle aged men.
ha!
even the executive director new about it and gave me the question-did you find the stripe paint yet?
lol
ugh
steph
things are just getting more and more complicated:
Greg wants to stay together even when he moves back to wales
I want to stay together, but I don't think it is for the right reasons.
Part of the deal is that we have to visit eachother, making the trip to wales and to america at least once within a year.
I don't know if i can afford to go to wales, told greg this but he insists on paying for me to come there. My feministic self will not allow this, but at the same time i am so tempted just to get a practically free trip to wales. He says that he has money saved up, and that he makes around $46,000 a year because he is a full time drywaller and he could afford it. what is funny is lucy i told this to and she doesn't believe it because she says that he is from the valley part of wales and people there are usually poor. i don't think that he is lying, but the thing is, who the fuck cares how much money he has? the thing is, if how much money he made mattered to me i wouldn't still really be with him. although he has bought me a ton of shit here and just seems to be showering me with gifts, grr. lucy thinks that he is trying to buy me into staying his girlfriend, and i must admit it is working a little bit. but the thing is there is nothing really bad about the relationship at all. nothing what so ever even though he may be a little clingy at some times. god, i don't want to give up on this long distance relationship like everyone thinks i should just because zach gave up. i know that is what it comes down to, zach gave up and now i am trying to prove him wrong. i mean imagine if i stayed together with the welshman all of these years and ended up marrying him and said to zach, see bastard, it could work you were just the asshole who let something go. aaahhh!!!!
i just have so many thoughts in my head. also i want to study abroad next semester, and my english friends are trying to get me to come to england. it would be 4 hours from where greg is, maybe 3. but the thing is i want to go to either spain, costa rica, mexico, or cuba. a spanish speaking country. the only option i am going to give myself is to go to spain if i want to, and then visit greg from there making it more affordable. i refuse to let him pay for me. now, not saying that i am going to spain just to be closer to him, but it is cool because then i can see all of my english friends and visit my little welsh girl lucy when she is home for new years or something and when she is home in april.
god this is so complicated. lucy says that i don't really like greg because before i said it was just a sex thing, but i am not sure if it is. the thing is i can't tell if i really like him or if it is just in my head.
I'm sorry for judging camille, because it is so tempting to just run off with a guy when he promises you everything. not saying i am moving to wales or greg is offering anything like that, but i mean come on - a free trip to wales is basically what he is giving me. come on
on a lighter note-
i was sent the other day to look for stripe paint. i thought my boss meant striping paint for roads, but he meant paint thta is a striped patter with colors. went all over the resort on a wild goose chase, just to come back to the office with a group of laughing middle aged men.
ha!
even the executive director new about it and gave me the question-did you find the stripe paint yet?
lol
ugh
steph