i want to cry
tomorrow is my first day at my new job... yeah that's right my new job, the newest job i've had in the past five months....
ever since mcdonalds i haven't been able to keep a job and i've been doing two things I really hate. The first is, living and just barley making it by. I hate just being able to pay my phone bill and not having any left over. I hate only having money for what I need and not enough to spend on being young. The second thing is that I haven't been saving my money at all. To tell the truth there is nothing really to save and next semester is going to come by before I know it and bite me in the ass with tuition.....
There is nothing more that I hate then starting a new job. It's so hard... one of the hardest things for ME to do. It's hard to start a job and work with people you don't know... Having to deal with being new and thus not getting talked to for a while. I used to be content with being a mystery.... not talking to anyone and just being a loner but I am a people person.... sort of. I don't know, it's hard to explain but I know that this place and these people probably wont talk to me for a while, at least not really talk to me. It's going to be months of me making stupid mistakes and getting crappy tips and worst of all.... getting people mad at me. ugh I hate it, but what am I going to do. I really want to get out of food but I don't know how to do anything else and besides that... my dad likes that I am a server. He is right, it is a great thing to do and have to fall back on but ugh I just hate starting over... i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hate it. I have been dreading this day since I got the job and I don't know why but I just really want to cry right now.
ever since mcdonalds i haven't been able to keep a job and i've been doing two things I really hate. The first is, living and just barley making it by. I hate just being able to pay my phone bill and not having any left over. I hate only having money for what I need and not enough to spend on being young. The second thing is that I haven't been saving my money at all. To tell the truth there is nothing really to save and next semester is going to come by before I know it and bite me in the ass with tuition.....
There is nothing more that I hate then starting a new job. It's so hard... one of the hardest things for ME to do. It's hard to start a job and work with people you don't know... Having to deal with being new and thus not getting talked to for a while. I used to be content with being a mystery.... not talking to anyone and just being a loner but I am a people person.... sort of. I don't know, it's hard to explain but I know that this place and these people probably wont talk to me for a while, at least not really talk to me. It's going to be months of me making stupid mistakes and getting crappy tips and worst of all.... getting people mad at me. ugh I hate it, but what am I going to do. I really want to get out of food but I don't know how to do anything else and besides that... my dad likes that I am a server. He is right, it is a great thing to do and have to fall back on but ugh I just hate starting over... i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hate it. I have been dreading this day since I got the job and I don't know why but I just really want to cry right now.