INSOMNIA
Dear LJ,
as usual i can't sleep
its nights like this where i think that this business IS actually going to KILL ME. I've been working too hard, and my friends are getting concerned...even some of my clients. And I've been grumpy too... I thought everyone was gunna kill me last night at Applebee's.
But the more I work now, the less I have to work later. And I'm perfectly happy pulling 70 hours weeks doing what i love.
I'm not gunna stop till i have 2 successful store-fronts. I'm not gunna stop till I can afford my 5 bedroom colonial off of Edgewood Ave. I have it all planned outttt. ;)
...sleep would be nice though
I'll sleep after the recitals are over, and NYSSMA has passed.
and i REFUUUSE to take those stupid sleeping drugs...thats all bullshit. I'm not putting that crap in my system.
I'm going to try to save up enough money to take July off. I will just give my students over to my staff for the month. I need to rest my mind and my poor voice that i'm blowing to shit. I want to take a loooong road trip, sight see, and write in my journal till my fingers fall off. I also have a few songs that are sitting in my journals waiting to be recorded. I haven't had the time to work on them, but I talked to Jon and told him I wanna book recording time this summer.
I also wanna go upstate to Kim's cabin and just lay on the lake for like... a week. Anyone wanna come???
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I finally was able to put TANNING back into my budget as of this month. Just in the nick-of-time because I was SOOO pale. But its a little embarassing because my clients are like "oh, Ian, you got tan, did you go away?" and I feel like such a loser being like "no i just went tanning 3 times since you last saw me" ... people's reactions are always "::pause::...oh" and then i get one of those like.. puzzled stares. I should just lie and be like "i went to the bahamas...for a day and then flew back quickly to be at work today" lol ugh
okay its 3:54am i am gunna try to sleep again.. Dave is coming over at 9:45 tomorrow to go shopping with me tomorrow morning. I need a suit for the recitals, and I need more professional clothes. Hopefully I can fall asleep so that i can wake up in time!!
goooooodnight
Ian
as usual i can't sleep
its nights like this where i think that this business IS actually going to KILL ME. I've been working too hard, and my friends are getting concerned...even some of my clients. And I've been grumpy too... I thought everyone was gunna kill me last night at Applebee's.
But the more I work now, the less I have to work later. And I'm perfectly happy pulling 70 hours weeks doing what i love.
I'm not gunna stop till i have 2 successful store-fronts. I'm not gunna stop till I can afford my 5 bedroom colonial off of Edgewood Ave. I have it all planned outttt. ;)
...sleep would be nice though
I'll sleep after the recitals are over, and NYSSMA has passed.
and i REFUUUSE to take those stupid sleeping drugs...thats all bullshit. I'm not putting that crap in my system.
I'm going to try to save up enough money to take July off. I will just give my students over to my staff for the month. I need to rest my mind and my poor voice that i'm blowing to shit. I want to take a loooong road trip, sight see, and write in my journal till my fingers fall off. I also have a few songs that are sitting in my journals waiting to be recorded. I haven't had the time to work on them, but I talked to Jon and told him I wanna book recording time this summer.
I also wanna go upstate to Kim's cabin and just lay on the lake for like... a week. Anyone wanna come???
---------------
I finally was able to put TANNING back into my budget as of this month. Just in the nick-of-time because I was SOOO pale. But its a little embarassing because my clients are like "oh, Ian, you got tan, did you go away?" and I feel like such a loser being like "no i just went tanning 3 times since you last saw me" ... people's reactions are always "::pause::...oh" and then i get one of those like.. puzzled stares. I should just lie and be like "i went to the bahamas...for a day and then flew back quickly to be at work today" lol ugh
okay its 3:54am i am gunna try to sleep again.. Dave is coming over at 9:45 tomorrow to go shopping with me tomorrow morning. I need a suit for the recitals, and I need more professional clothes. Hopefully I can fall asleep so that i can wake up in time!!
goooooodnight
Ian