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[pianistang_punk]

composition #54365476 for class myself:


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txt para kay topstylist: yo jigs, i need yr help in picking out an outfit. pwd k pmnta d2 tom (l8r)? :p
txt para kay maramingkamukha: pg mgprmdam k bkas ng umaga, may kwn2 k syo. ngbti lng kayo ni pol knlimtan m n nmn ako! j/k ü
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PRIVATE

so yung get-together was fun, even though not in ways na expected. (but then the unexpected things are always better, right?)

hindi naman ako slow, so hindi ko alam, bakit nung nag invite si den ng inuman, hindi ko naisip na of course andun din sya. duh, we had the exact same circle of friends in high school after all. or baka naisip ko, tapos pinush away ko lang yung thought? fdggfdh; but then ang dating naman talaga nung nagyaya si den, it was a girls only thing. should have known better though since sila pa rin ni tom.

long story short, he was there, and it was awkward at first, and then it wasn't. kasi, the thing is, if you're with friends from high school, eh di you start being nostalgic and you start talking about things you did in high school. and the thing with being with someone for 3 out of the 4 years in high school is, halos lahat ng memories mo of things you did in high school (a lot of which were monumentals firsts and seconds and thirds etc. etc. you get the point, kakabit ng taong 'yun. at lahat ng tao sa inuman knew that. so yun yung awkward part - yung part where tawa na lang ako everyone someone pointed out na "uy remember when tintin and s did this, when tintin and s did that?"

yung not so awkward part was when natulog na yung iba in other words lightweight pa rin si taks, at bumigay agad hahaha, at nagkanya kanyang pagmumuni-muni/conversations yung iba. i think medyo nakainom na nga talaga ako, kasi nung lumapit siya and said "tintin, i'm sorry," i didn't even flinch, i just said, "okay."

and he's said it before, even, i don't know what the fuck was different about the other night. siguro nga yung alcohol talaga, haha. coupled with a few nostalgic memories. and then we had this long talk (apparently mahabang talk, kasi mag-uumaga na when we finished, although it didn't really feel like it), and then suddenly everything was okay. i hate it every time he acts like the world is out to get him, or every time he acts like nothing is good in life, pero otherwise, he has always been one of the easiest people to talk to, and sometimes i forget that he didn't always have all the stupid emo bullshit act on.

he asked me kung totoo daw yung mga recent things na naririnig nya about me. sabi ko, what, about the high school boy? sabi ko, oo, totoo, tas sya naman wtf tintin, he's sixteen. natawa ko, sabi ko, s, you were fifteen. sabi niya, fifteen din naman daw kasi ako nun, so sabi ko so what? i like him. he asked kung in love ako (haha, see? puta for all his emo bullshit, madrama pa rin siya about things like this, lmao), sabi ko basta, i like him. tapos tinignan nya ko ng weird, haha, and i just smiled at him, so natawa na lang din siya, and i think if we're having conversations like that, it means we're okay, right? or at least that we're going to be okay.

lol. what the fuck, nobela yun ah. :p

namimiss ko na si gelo, haha. minsan gusto ko na lang syang batukan at sabihan: umuwi ka na kasi dito, alam naman ng buong mundo na miss na miss mo na si vinnie, stop being in so much denial. pero alam ko pag gawin ko yun what little progress ang meron siya dyan sa weird nyang brain babaliktad lahat eh! hahaha. but i'm glad kahit pano may katiting sya na progress, lmao. i just really wish those two would just put all their shit aside and work things out, kasi sila na lang yata ang ayaw umamin - everyone else has already figured it out.

super awkward diba, if i bring a cd for my boyfriend's father to sign, when i meet him? hahahaha, fail ka kristin. :p although seriously, agh, eto na naman ako and my weird anxiety. :/