Writing...
As I mentioned my writing 'challenge' here's the very first one.
Angst, what else? :D
Title: Accident
Author: pi_ankh
Rating: Mentioned blood... Take your change...
Pairing: I don't do pairings anymore... (Just that you know...)
Genre: Angst as mentioned
Comments: Just tell me what you think of it, if you think anything... It's just crap, isn't it?
Notice, I'm not angsty (at the moment atleast), so don't get into any conclusions...
Accident
You never think it will come upon you, do you? You never think you'd be the one the news is telling about. Of how your car has gone off the road and crashed to the concrete wall. Of how many people that you loved being dead because of that accident.
I didn't. Why should've I? I've always been a careful driver, never had a single point on my licence, never. I used to like driving, now I can't even bear of an idea of it.
Yes, it was me who was driving. I drove the car that smashed to that concrete wall. It was my family that died. And I survived though it was my entire fault. I didn't watch the road and when I did, I turned the wheal too much. The rest was just a flight.
It was all like in slow motion. I could see the glass splinters flying in the air and the blood drops were everywhere. The children were screaming in the backseat. Then they were suddenly quiet. Everything was quiet. Everything was black. No. It was white. It was so white that it hurt my eyes. I've never seen such white before. I thought it would make me blind. I can't remember more. It was so slow, but it was so fast.
I remember something from here and there. Someone asked me my name, I'm not sure if I answered. Someone was pulling me out from the car. Someone wiped my face with something wet. I didn't know anything about anything. I didn't have the mind to ask about anything.
The first thing I can say that I really remember when I opened my eyes in a white room. I was sure I was dead, but only for a short moment. There couldn't be pain after death, could there? A nurse came to me with a faint smile on her lips. I wanted to ask her about my family but she told me not to speak. She asked if I was in pain and I nodded. She left the room and minute later she came in with the doctor who ordered me some painkillers. The nurse injected them to my body and the room became faint, clouded, until it turned to black.
I woke up again and I saw a policeman standing with the nurse just outside the door. It didn't ache anymore. I had no idea what day it was. I had no idea how long I had slept. The nurse noticed I had awoken and she hurried to me. She asked me if I was feeling better and did I have any pains. I told her I was alright and asked what the policeman was after. She avoided my eyes. I guess it was then when I realized it. She asked if I was fit to take him in for couple of questions. Still she didn't look at me. I nodded at her and said yes.
The policeman came in and I couldn't help myself crying. 'They're dead, aren't they?' I asked suffocated and tried to wipe the tears away. 'Yes… I am really sorry for your lost.' His voice was quiet and clear. It wasn't easy for him either, I could tell it through my own sorrow. 'I know this isn't a good moment, but could you please answer to couple of questions. It won't take long' he asked then. I wasn't able to answer to him in words so I just nodded.
After he had gone the nurse told me that it had been a week from the accident. I couldn't believe my ears. It just didn't make any sense.
They told me that the deer that had hit our car had somehow got lost to the city. It had hit to the other side of the car pushing it all inside and the concrete wall had done the finishing. They said that they had died immediately. They said that it was a miracle that I was alive.
Miracle? Miracle to live, when all my loved ones died? It was a punishment, for something I hadn't done. It should've been me. I should've died. I was driving the car. I wasn't even meant to drive it that day. I should've died…
Angst, what else? :D
Title: Accident
Author: pi_ankh
Rating: Mentioned blood... Take your change...
Pairing: I don't do pairings anymore... (Just that you know...)
Genre: Angst as mentioned
Comments: Just tell me what you think of it, if you think anything... It's just crap, isn't it?
Notice, I'm not angsty (at the moment atleast), so don't get into any conclusions...
Accident
You never think it will come upon you, do you? You never think you'd be the one the news is telling about. Of how your car has gone off the road and crashed to the concrete wall. Of how many people that you loved being dead because of that accident.
I didn't. Why should've I? I've always been a careful driver, never had a single point on my licence, never. I used to like driving, now I can't even bear of an idea of it.
Yes, it was me who was driving. I drove the car that smashed to that concrete wall. It was my family that died. And I survived though it was my entire fault. I didn't watch the road and when I did, I turned the wheal too much. The rest was just a flight.
It was all like in slow motion. I could see the glass splinters flying in the air and the blood drops were everywhere. The children were screaming in the backseat. Then they were suddenly quiet. Everything was quiet. Everything was black. No. It was white. It was so white that it hurt my eyes. I've never seen such white before. I thought it would make me blind. I can't remember more. It was so slow, but it was so fast.
I remember something from here and there. Someone asked me my name, I'm not sure if I answered. Someone was pulling me out from the car. Someone wiped my face with something wet. I didn't know anything about anything. I didn't have the mind to ask about anything.
The first thing I can say that I really remember when I opened my eyes in a white room. I was sure I was dead, but only for a short moment. There couldn't be pain after death, could there? A nurse came to me with a faint smile on her lips. I wanted to ask her about my family but she told me not to speak. She asked if I was in pain and I nodded. She left the room and minute later she came in with the doctor who ordered me some painkillers. The nurse injected them to my body and the room became faint, clouded, until it turned to black.
I woke up again and I saw a policeman standing with the nurse just outside the door. It didn't ache anymore. I had no idea what day it was. I had no idea how long I had slept. The nurse noticed I had awoken and she hurried to me. She asked me if I was feeling better and did I have any pains. I told her I was alright and asked what the policeman was after. She avoided my eyes. I guess it was then when I realized it. She asked if I was fit to take him in for couple of questions. Still she didn't look at me. I nodded at her and said yes.
The policeman came in and I couldn't help myself crying. 'They're dead, aren't they?' I asked suffocated and tried to wipe the tears away. 'Yes… I am really sorry for your lost.' His voice was quiet and clear. It wasn't easy for him either, I could tell it through my own sorrow. 'I know this isn't a good moment, but could you please answer to couple of questions. It won't take long' he asked then. I wasn't able to answer to him in words so I just nodded.
After he had gone the nurse told me that it had been a week from the accident. I couldn't believe my ears. It just didn't make any sense.
They told me that the deer that had hit our car had somehow got lost to the city. It had hit to the other side of the car pushing it all inside and the concrete wall had done the finishing. They said that they had died immediately. They said that it was a miracle that I was alive.
Miracle? Miracle to live, when all my loved ones died? It was a punishment, for something I hadn't done. It should've been me. I should've died. I was driving the car. I wasn't even meant to drive it that day. I should've died…