Idiot approaching. You have been warned...
All right friends and visitors. This is my journal starting from Wednesday. I had this urgent will to write down the stuff that happens to me and as I can’t get access to the net every day, I decided to write stuff to computer and later on post it to my journal. Tell me if this experiment was worth a try, or should I drop it here… Please comment if you ever happen to wander here by any accident… My life is quite boring, but I like to tell about it… *selfish* I have never been able to keep a diary so I’d like to keep this as one. And just to know… Some of the stuff can be quite… Odd… After all I’m a weird human being…
Wednesday 24.5.2006 15:06
I hate USB sticks… I managed to destroy some files and I thought that well it doesn’t matter; I can return the files from the trash bin… But no! Of course the files won’t go to there! They are immediately destroyed! Why didn’t anyone tell me that before! There were at least two files I don’t have anywhere! Now I have to find them again from the net! I hate life! And I hate computers! I shall destroy them all! Seek And Destroy! *Metallica rules*
Wednesday 24.5.2006 15:10
And now I don’t hate the sticks anymore… I didn’t destroy the files after all… They were hiding from me… Thank God!
Wednesday 24.5.2006 19:58
I’m all-hyper now. I watched Grease just a moment ago and I have to say I loved it. I’m not a huge fan of John Travolta, but in that movie he IS a hottie… And he can sing too… *drools* Even the movie didn’t have a mind blowing plot it was good, and even I, who don’t like songs in Disney movies, love the song-scenes in Grease. And Usually I don’t like the leading actress, but Olivia Newton-John was good and she has a good voice too and she wasn’t the ‘bitch’. Man I liked that movie… But I still don’t love Travolta in his newer films… He’s a good actor, but something about him just isn’t right. Like he’d be completely evil, it just somehow shines from him. I can’t explain. But he looked hot with his grease-hair… *goes to dreamland*
Wednesday 24.5.2006 23:54
Geesh, I’m tired. I had some great thoughts earlier, but guess twice if I remember it anymore… Well I just watched this little series about Jew children at the Second World War. Or how they were trying to save them from the camps. I half slept the last half an hour already, so I’d better go to sleep. Tomorrow is going to be boring, I suppose. Maybe a Hitler movie and Vertigo (?), James Stewart movie… And I truly hate Nazis. I have nothing against Germans, but Nazis… They were idiots, and Hitler was the greatest moron. What would world became without him? At least millions of people wouldn’t have died, or then there would have been some other great ‘führer’ or ‘napoleon’ instead of him. People need a leader and in need they will get one, either good or bad. Usually bad, ‘cause evil overpowers good every time in the beginning, but in the end the scale goes back to balance. The wolfs come clothed as sheep and no one sees the danger until it’s too late. *senseless babbling*
Thursday 25.5.2006 10:08
This morning… Well first I should tell you about my home arrangements so you will understand properly my ‘story’. My mother has been building an extra wing to our house, but in short of money it has been unfinished for at least three years and as a cause of very cold winter out inside toilet cot frozen, well the pipes actually, and since then we have used our ‘out house’. Don’t freak out, it’s nothing, things could be worse…
Well back to this morning. I went to the toilet about 5 am. And you can’t understand how I got pissed to our rooster. (We have four hens and a rooster…) That bloody creature is never quiet! His ‘singing’ voice is all right, but in hell does he have to scream all the time! It gives me headache! Don’t get me wrong, I love our chickens, but they can be so annoying once in a while. If they get loose it will take more than half an hour to get them back inside. I don’t mind, if they are outside, but they have created some kind of habit to visit our neighbour’s garden, although we have quite a lot of yard ourselves.
And I almost forgot! Last night mom called to granny and granny said that she will get out of the hospital soon! They would have sent her to our local health central, but thank God they were out of space here! Our local health central isn’t very known for good care, you know, and granny will never let them put her in there. I’m so relieved. Thanks for your support ^^ I know that I can count on you. *cries happy tears*
Thursday 25.5.2006 20:01
What a day I had… Well the beginning was quite boring to be honest, but then I went to cycle and man, what it came… I was supposed to make a longer ‘trip’, hour at least, but after maybe ten fifteen minutes my bike’s handlebars were, not exaggerating, rolling 360 degrees around. It was quite nice to notice that when I was going down hill in forest… Nothing happened though and I came home without a scratch and the downhill wasn’t very steep.
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/MybikeasIwascycling.jpg
I’m quite bored to be honest. I wanted the bike trip to last longer, I was intending to take snapshots, I managed to take some, but there was no idea continuing my trip with broken bike. I’m just heating water and the sauna. I wait forward it… Sauna is the place to be.
And more pics from the 'trip'... Enjoy of my shooting skills...
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/blueberryflowers.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/blueberryflowers3.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/scenery1.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/scenery4.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/lichen2.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/scenery7.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/alder2.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/scenery6.jpg
And today I wondered if anyone, except my two dear friends fonulyn and sherg, read my journal. I’d really like it if someone would wander to take a look of my boring life. Maybe that someone could make it not so boring. I’m not saying this so that fonulyn and sherg wouldn’t be fun company, quite the contrary. I enjoy their company very much, but some other acquaintances would be nice. I love friends I’d like to have lot of them, as it seems that my old friends are too busy with their own things that they have forgotten me… *mopes* One is too busy with her boyfriend, another one just doesn’t care, one is enchanted with her boyfriend and it seems she’s not interested in same things as I (she’s more of the chick-girls… goes with the fashion, loves to make up… Quite the opposite than I…) and from the last one I haven’t heard anything since… Since February (?)… They say that distance doesn’t matter when friendship is in question. Well sometimes it doesn’t… Ask from fonulyn (we were separated with 150 km (?) for 4 years and we are still the best pals). And sometimes it does. Take a look above… Sometimes I miss their company, but most of the time I’m just relieved they are not around. For example I visited one of my friends last weekend and when we were shopping I became very oppressed. She was showing me all the stuff I didn’t like and her company was really… I dunno. I have never ever felt like that with her. First I was going to stay till Monday, but then on Saturday I was made my mind to leave at Sunday… I didn’t say anything of this to her, and I won’t… And she wanted to make me some total style chance, well not total, but… She wanted to make me up, do my hair, all the girly stuff and I was like “Really?” At the end I let her cut my hair a bit, she just took some of the ‘dead’ ends away and now it feels like half of my hair has been cut way… And I’m not completely happy about the result… Now my hair is too even from behind… Maybe I should do something to it. I can’t make a proper plait anymore… It’s still long but… I can’t end it they way I used to. Now I have to use a hair doughnut, and I don’t like it. And now it bothers me even more… Life sucks.
Friday 26.5.2006 1:04
Now I have found my writing mode… One new thing coming up, hopefully it will become something reasonable. (I doubt it.) Some inspiration by Abba… Weird me…
And this night once again Sentenced surprised me. How on earth can they have made so bloody good music?? Sometimes it’s like they have managed to but all my thoughts and feeling to words and music. The Cold White Light always makes me cry, in one way or another. It’s the lyrics and the melancholy, with the utmost blissful melodies. When I try to put their albums into order, which I like the most, I have terrible problems… I love their last three albums and they chance place all the time, actually as I listen to their albums, the one I’m listening is almost every time on top. *babble babble*
I just love their music. I love it like I love Beatles’ music, but still differently. I can get the same feelings from both of their music, but still they raise different things in my mind.
Friday 26.5.2006 1:54
Phew! Got done with the writing. It became something between angst and fluff; I wonder what people will like of it. It sure does remind me of something else that I’ve written… Have to see if anyone will notice. I’d better go to bed… Or I’m gonna be wasted in the morning. Have to fresh for Sherlock Holmes. Oh, how I adore him too! And Jeremy Brett! (He’s the one playing Holmes… *drool* I really do have weird taste of men… Or do I? I have to think about that tomorrow, or to be exact today. ‘Remember to write an essay of the men you adore. Compare them and make conclusions.’ I really need sleep, as you can see…)
Friday 26.5.2006 10:46
Sherlock Holmes was as good as ever… What a man… About my taste of men. I have obsession with beards, you know. Well it depends on beard but many men look better with beard than without. Like the actor who plays captain Dominic Marone (?) in The Bold and The Beautiful. He was a hottie with the beard but without… Yuck… And yes, I have followed the series, but I’m not a great fan. If I want to have a good laugh, B&B does it quite well. Back to the beards. Beard makes man look more masculine, sexier in a way. But to some men beard just won’t do. I’ve seen quite awful beards and I possibly couldn’t imagine Gackt or any other, except Kaoru, from Dir en grey to wear a beard. They just can’t have a beard; it would be something not very good… First that I hear that Kaoru has a beard I was like “What the hell has he done?!”, but afterwards as I saw the pictures I was like “WoW! That’s HOT!” And ever since I’ve drooled after his beard. I admit I’m weird… And once as I watched one of their DVDs with fonulyn I noticed this drop of something, I suppose it was sweat, but anyways, in his beard and it drove me mad. I was like “There was sweat on his beard! Did you see that! That was so… *screams*” and fonulyn was like “What? There was something?” And then I rewind it, if I remember correctly, and show it to her and she was “Yeah… Something is definitely in his beard.” I was probably screaming like an idiot. My inner teen woke up then. And I’m supposed to turn twenty soon… Yeah right. And then I have serious obsession with Aragorn’s beard (as played by Viggo Mortensen. Man he’s hot.) And to his hands. He has so strong looking hands, so rough and so… I’d love to scream now. And Ian McKellen has nice hands too… What a pity he’s gay. And Sean Connery is one of my favs also. I’m hopelessly obsessed to his voice, his hands, his beard, basically everything about him. [And Microsoft word is killing me all the time! It asks after every bloody word if I want to install some f*cking program! I want to send a letter bomb to Bill Gates! He’s the main reason to my misery! *goes insane*] Now I’m too pissed to continue. Life is crap. Especially Microsoft! Kill ‘Em All! Just Kill ’Em All! *smashes the computer*
Wednesday 24.5.2006 15:06
I hate USB sticks… I managed to destroy some files and I thought that well it doesn’t matter; I can return the files from the trash bin… But no! Of course the files won’t go to there! They are immediately destroyed! Why didn’t anyone tell me that before! There were at least two files I don’t have anywhere! Now I have to find them again from the net! I hate life! And I hate computers! I shall destroy them all! Seek And Destroy! *Metallica rules*
Wednesday 24.5.2006 15:10
And now I don’t hate the sticks anymore… I didn’t destroy the files after all… They were hiding from me… Thank God!
Wednesday 24.5.2006 19:58
I’m all-hyper now. I watched Grease just a moment ago and I have to say I loved it. I’m not a huge fan of John Travolta, but in that movie he IS a hottie… And he can sing too… *drools* Even the movie didn’t have a mind blowing plot it was good, and even I, who don’t like songs in Disney movies, love the song-scenes in Grease. And Usually I don’t like the leading actress, but Olivia Newton-John was good and she has a good voice too and she wasn’t the ‘bitch’. Man I liked that movie… But I still don’t love Travolta in his newer films… He’s a good actor, but something about him just isn’t right. Like he’d be completely evil, it just somehow shines from him. I can’t explain. But he looked hot with his grease-hair… *goes to dreamland*
Wednesday 24.5.2006 23:54
Geesh, I’m tired. I had some great thoughts earlier, but guess twice if I remember it anymore… Well I just watched this little series about Jew children at the Second World War. Or how they were trying to save them from the camps. I half slept the last half an hour already, so I’d better go to sleep. Tomorrow is going to be boring, I suppose. Maybe a Hitler movie and Vertigo (?), James Stewart movie… And I truly hate Nazis. I have nothing against Germans, but Nazis… They were idiots, and Hitler was the greatest moron. What would world became without him? At least millions of people wouldn’t have died, or then there would have been some other great ‘führer’ or ‘napoleon’ instead of him. People need a leader and in need they will get one, either good or bad. Usually bad, ‘cause evil overpowers good every time in the beginning, but in the end the scale goes back to balance. The wolfs come clothed as sheep and no one sees the danger until it’s too late. *senseless babbling*
Thursday 25.5.2006 10:08
This morning… Well first I should tell you about my home arrangements so you will understand properly my ‘story’. My mother has been building an extra wing to our house, but in short of money it has been unfinished for at least three years and as a cause of very cold winter out inside toilet cot frozen, well the pipes actually, and since then we have used our ‘out house’. Don’t freak out, it’s nothing, things could be worse…
Well back to this morning. I went to the toilet about 5 am. And you can’t understand how I got pissed to our rooster. (We have four hens and a rooster…) That bloody creature is never quiet! His ‘singing’ voice is all right, but in hell does he have to scream all the time! It gives me headache! Don’t get me wrong, I love our chickens, but they can be so annoying once in a while. If they get loose it will take more than half an hour to get them back inside. I don’t mind, if they are outside, but they have created some kind of habit to visit our neighbour’s garden, although we have quite a lot of yard ourselves.
And I almost forgot! Last night mom called to granny and granny said that she will get out of the hospital soon! They would have sent her to our local health central, but thank God they were out of space here! Our local health central isn’t very known for good care, you know, and granny will never let them put her in there. I’m so relieved. Thanks for your support ^^ I know that I can count on you. *cries happy tears*
Thursday 25.5.2006 20:01
What a day I had… Well the beginning was quite boring to be honest, but then I went to cycle and man, what it came… I was supposed to make a longer ‘trip’, hour at least, but after maybe ten fifteen minutes my bike’s handlebars were, not exaggerating, rolling 360 degrees around. It was quite nice to notice that when I was going down hill in forest… Nothing happened though and I came home without a scratch and the downhill wasn’t very steep.
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/MybikeasIwascycling.jpg
I’m quite bored to be honest. I wanted the bike trip to last longer, I was intending to take snapshots, I managed to take some, but there was no idea continuing my trip with broken bike. I’m just heating water and the sauna. I wait forward it… Sauna is the place to be.
And more pics from the 'trip'... Enjoy of my shooting skills...
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/blueberryflowers.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/blueberryflowers3.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/scenery1.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/scenery4.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/lichen2.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/scenery7.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/alder2.jpg
http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j71/pi_ankh/scenery6.jpg
And today I wondered if anyone, except my two dear friends fonulyn and sherg, read my journal. I’d really like it if someone would wander to take a look of my boring life. Maybe that someone could make it not so boring. I’m not saying this so that fonulyn and sherg wouldn’t be fun company, quite the contrary. I enjoy their company very much, but some other acquaintances would be nice. I love friends I’d like to have lot of them, as it seems that my old friends are too busy with their own things that they have forgotten me… *mopes* One is too busy with her boyfriend, another one just doesn’t care, one is enchanted with her boyfriend and it seems she’s not interested in same things as I (she’s more of the chick-girls… goes with the fashion, loves to make up… Quite the opposite than I…) and from the last one I haven’t heard anything since… Since February (?)… They say that distance doesn’t matter when friendship is in question. Well sometimes it doesn’t… Ask from fonulyn (we were separated with 150 km (?) for 4 years and we are still the best pals). And sometimes it does. Take a look above… Sometimes I miss their company, but most of the time I’m just relieved they are not around. For example I visited one of my friends last weekend and when we were shopping I became very oppressed. She was showing me all the stuff I didn’t like and her company was really… I dunno. I have never ever felt like that with her. First I was going to stay till Monday, but then on Saturday I was made my mind to leave at Sunday… I didn’t say anything of this to her, and I won’t… And she wanted to make me some total style chance, well not total, but… She wanted to make me up, do my hair, all the girly stuff and I was like “Really?” At the end I let her cut my hair a bit, she just took some of the ‘dead’ ends away and now it feels like half of my hair has been cut way… And I’m not completely happy about the result… Now my hair is too even from behind… Maybe I should do something to it. I can’t make a proper plait anymore… It’s still long but… I can’t end it they way I used to. Now I have to use a hair doughnut, and I don’t like it. And now it bothers me even more… Life sucks.
Friday 26.5.2006 1:04
Now I have found my writing mode… One new thing coming up, hopefully it will become something reasonable. (I doubt it.) Some inspiration by Abba… Weird me…
And this night once again Sentenced surprised me. How on earth can they have made so bloody good music?? Sometimes it’s like they have managed to but all my thoughts and feeling to words and music. The Cold White Light always makes me cry, in one way or another. It’s the lyrics and the melancholy, with the utmost blissful melodies. When I try to put their albums into order, which I like the most, I have terrible problems… I love their last three albums and they chance place all the time, actually as I listen to their albums, the one I’m listening is almost every time on top. *babble babble*
I just love their music. I love it like I love Beatles’ music, but still differently. I can get the same feelings from both of their music, but still they raise different things in my mind.
Friday 26.5.2006 1:54
Phew! Got done with the writing. It became something between angst and fluff; I wonder what people will like of it. It sure does remind me of something else that I’ve written… Have to see if anyone will notice. I’d better go to bed… Or I’m gonna be wasted in the morning. Have to fresh for Sherlock Holmes. Oh, how I adore him too! And Jeremy Brett! (He’s the one playing Holmes… *drool* I really do have weird taste of men… Or do I? I have to think about that tomorrow, or to be exact today. ‘Remember to write an essay of the men you adore. Compare them and make conclusions.’ I really need sleep, as you can see…)
Friday 26.5.2006 10:46
Sherlock Holmes was as good as ever… What a man… About my taste of men. I have obsession with beards, you know. Well it depends on beard but many men look better with beard than without. Like the actor who plays captain Dominic Marone (?) in The Bold and The Beautiful. He was a hottie with the beard but without… Yuck… And yes, I have followed the series, but I’m not a great fan. If I want to have a good laugh, B&B does it quite well. Back to the beards. Beard makes man look more masculine, sexier in a way. But to some men beard just won’t do. I’ve seen quite awful beards and I possibly couldn’t imagine Gackt or any other, except Kaoru, from Dir en grey to wear a beard. They just can’t have a beard; it would be something not very good… First that I hear that Kaoru has a beard I was like “What the hell has he done?!”, but afterwards as I saw the pictures I was like “WoW! That’s HOT!” And ever since I’ve drooled after his beard. I admit I’m weird… And once as I watched one of their DVDs with fonulyn I noticed this drop of something, I suppose it was sweat, but anyways, in his beard and it drove me mad. I was like “There was sweat on his beard! Did you see that! That was so… *screams*” and fonulyn was like “What? There was something?” And then I rewind it, if I remember correctly, and show it to her and she was “Yeah… Something is definitely in his beard.” I was probably screaming like an idiot. My inner teen woke up then. And I’m supposed to turn twenty soon… Yeah right. And then I have serious obsession with Aragorn’s beard (as played by Viggo Mortensen. Man he’s hot.) And to his hands. He has so strong looking hands, so rough and so… I’d love to scream now. And Ian McKellen has nice hands too… What a pity he’s gay. And Sean Connery is one of my favs also. I’m hopelessly obsessed to his voice, his hands, his beard, basically everything about him. [And Microsoft word is killing me all the time! It asks after every bloody word if I want to install some f*cking program! I want to send a letter bomb to Bill Gates! He’s the main reason to my misery! *goes insane*] Now I’m too pissed to continue. Life is crap. Especially Microsoft! Kill ‘Em All! Just Kill ’Em All! *smashes the computer*