Sigh of relief
We [fonulyn, makaronikeisari, Janne, our Chinese friend, our Russian friend and I] had our movie night yesterday. We watched Dark Knight, the latest Batman movie. I was a bit disappointed with it, though I didn't have any expectations. The plot was all over the place, and Batman's annoying low voice was still there *headpalm* I totally loved Gary Oldman again ^_^ He's just perfect as Gordon ♥ I really have no opinion on Ledger's performance as Joker. The way he licked his lips all the time annoyed me, maybe that was the purpose? But I liked the way Joker was crazy that he didn't need a reason for what he was doing. It suits for the character. For me there is no other Joker than the one played by Jack Nicholson. He's just perfect. But yeah, the movie was quite average, the special gadgets were cool.
I was quite afraid of what will become of the evening. On Thursday I asked Janne if we should ask after the class him [the Russian guy] to our movie evening. He agreed with me and as I was watching the hands of the clock moving closer to show the end of the class my heart was having tachycardia of some sort. I had this huge lump inside of me, just the same kind I had [and still have] when asking permission to something from mom. This fright of being rejected. But it worked out nicely, thanks to Janne 'cause he did almost all the talk. Then yesterday after class we reminded him of the movie evening and even I managed to put a word in. [applauses]
When he then arrived to Janne's place I felt really awkward. I greeted him normally and when he sat on the sofa I felt that he felt himself a bit awkward [but I really can't tell was it just my mind playing tricks, cause I really can't read him, as it seems...] I was quite "locked" in the beginning. Unable to talk properly, and I didn't quite get all the things others said to me. *head -> desk* I blame lack of sleep, partly. Partly I was just confused because of the situation.
Then we watched the movie and I was asking if Janne wanted to sit on the sofa, as there was only one place left, the one next to him, my regular place. I don't know what Janne was thinking, because he knows my situation, and he just said that he'll be on the floor, his normal place. So I had to seat myself next to him. I felt awkward in the beginning, but it eased as the movie went on. So on that part everything went nice.
After the movie we talked shit and played dices, or fonulyn and the Chinese guy watched TV, makaronikeisari had left to meet his friend and the three rest of us played poker with dices. He was being normal, took eye contact and managed to reply to it *cheers* So yes, it was a success of one sort.
I'm still a bit confused of myself. Though he hurt my emotions by being plain rude, I can't help my feelings. If only humans would work only with reason... I'll let the situation flow as it goes, but I want to talk with him about what happened. Really talk, not just a "five-minute-talk". Cause I don't want thing to hang in the air forever. But I'm getting to my normal state, last night was a great step to achieve it. Next week will be better than this one and that's something!
And now I think I'll rehearse Seek & Destroy! What an awesome song to play.
I was quite afraid of what will become of the evening. On Thursday I asked Janne if we should ask after the class him [the Russian guy] to our movie evening. He agreed with me and as I was watching the hands of the clock moving closer to show the end of the class my heart was having tachycardia of some sort. I had this huge lump inside of me, just the same kind I had [and still have] when asking permission to something from mom. This fright of being rejected. But it worked out nicely, thanks to Janne 'cause he did almost all the talk. Then yesterday after class we reminded him of the movie evening and even I managed to put a word in. [applauses]
When he then arrived to Janne's place I felt really awkward. I greeted him normally and when he sat on the sofa I felt that he felt himself a bit awkward [but I really can't tell was it just my mind playing tricks, cause I really can't read him, as it seems...] I was quite "locked" in the beginning. Unable to talk properly, and I didn't quite get all the things others said to me. *head -> desk* I blame lack of sleep, partly. Partly I was just confused because of the situation.
Then we watched the movie and I was asking if Janne wanted to sit on the sofa, as there was only one place left, the one next to him, my regular place. I don't know what Janne was thinking, because he knows my situation, and he just said that he'll be on the floor, his normal place. So I had to seat myself next to him. I felt awkward in the beginning, but it eased as the movie went on. So on that part everything went nice.
After the movie we talked shit and played dices, or fonulyn and the Chinese guy watched TV, makaronikeisari had left to meet his friend and the three rest of us played poker with dices. He was being normal, took eye contact and managed to reply to it *cheers* So yes, it was a success of one sort.
I'm still a bit confused of myself. Though he hurt my emotions by being plain rude, I can't help my feelings. If only humans would work only with reason... I'll let the situation flow as it goes, but I want to talk with him about what happened. Really talk, not just a "five-minute-talk". Cause I don't want thing to hang in the air forever. But I'm getting to my normal state, last night was a great step to achieve it. Next week will be better than this one and that's something!
And now I think I'll rehearse Seek & Destroy! What an awesome song to play.