Chapter 41: Stole My Attention
Hard to say what stole my attention
There are times that you just have to admit that you're defeated. That the one thing that you've been reaching for, the one thing that brings so much meaning into your life, just can not be attained. I thought I had accepted that a while ago, but tonight proved that I'm still attached. I wish I could just show all my emotion I have, but I just end up smileing and laughing, trying to cover it all up...what I really feel.
I threw it all away...and I still regret it, as much as I try to act that I don't...
Also, since my parents are full of b.s., I won't be making any kind of trip this weekend to either the ball game at Riverside or to go out anywhere on Saturday. That's seriously crap. Oh well, life goes on I guess. That's truely crap...had at least Friday's events planned for sure. Sorry you guys :(
Every time I smile, I actually mean to cry. Every time I laugh, a part of me dies. Every day I think, I realize it's real. Every day I live, I don't want to feel.
There are times that you just have to admit that you're defeated. That the one thing that you've been reaching for, the one thing that brings so much meaning into your life, just can not be attained. I thought I had accepted that a while ago, but tonight proved that I'm still attached. I wish I could just show all my emotion I have, but I just end up smileing and laughing, trying to cover it all up...what I really feel.
I threw it all away...and I still regret it, as much as I try to act that I don't...
Also, since my parents are full of b.s., I won't be making any kind of trip this weekend to either the ball game at Riverside or to go out anywhere on Saturday. That's seriously crap. Oh well, life goes on I guess. That's truely crap...had at least Friday's events planned for sure. Sorry you guys :(
Every time I smile, I actually mean to cry. Every time I laugh, a part of me dies. Every day I think, I realize it's real. Every day I live, I don't want to feel.