O-k......
So, work was boring as HELL today.....Since it was nice out no one wanted to be in the gym. Can't really blame them. John, Tom, Clarissa and I were having a good time entertaining ourselves....I asked Clarissa to get some information about being a male sex operator cuz she's one and she says its good money. haha....People always tell me I have a sexy voice, so I might as well use it to pay some bills, right? We'll see........
I talked to Alex today for like an hour and forty minutes at work.......they're SO gonna fire me. lol.
I'm kinda done with the whole Luis drama.......tomorrow is the last day I deal with it and we'll see what the outcome is, but I'm ready to nip it in the butt and see whats really going on.
Out of the blue Marcus IMs me and he's like "How are things going?" and he's all trying to chat and I'm like "Okay, what made you IM me?" and he's like "I dunno....just wanted to." and I'm like "What?" Why the fuck can't guys be honest? Will it KILL them to be honest with themselves and with someone else for ONCE? I'm like, you aint IM me since August and all of a sudden out of the blue you wanna catch up and see how things are going? Right.....so, Chris kept it short and sweet. Thanks.
I've come to realize that though someone may not be the person you need at the time and you have this "relationship" with them, you never really forget what they did for you and how they treated you. I was having a converstaion with Harold and I told him how I told Clifford back in like April that I could date whoever else, but I feel like no one will ever treat me, myself, the way he did. Minus the.....dramas... Sometimes it COULD get a little overboard, but one knows that he means it, its real. So, I thank you for that...its good to experience something like that once. And like I told him, we're at two seperate places, but that doesn't mean I don't care about you or feel the same as you do. But, we move on with our lives and we grow and we learn and we fall and we eventually win. But, I at least know what I should be treated like and I won't settle for anything less.
I talked to Alex today for like an hour and forty minutes at work.......they're SO gonna fire me. lol.
I'm kinda done with the whole Luis drama.......tomorrow is the last day I deal with it and we'll see what the outcome is, but I'm ready to nip it in the butt and see whats really going on.
Out of the blue Marcus IMs me and he's like "How are things going?" and he's all trying to chat and I'm like "Okay, what made you IM me?" and he's like "I dunno....just wanted to." and I'm like "What?" Why the fuck can't guys be honest? Will it KILL them to be honest with themselves and with someone else for ONCE? I'm like, you aint IM me since August and all of a sudden out of the blue you wanna catch up and see how things are going? Right.....so, Chris kept it short and sweet. Thanks.
I've come to realize that though someone may not be the person you need at the time and you have this "relationship" with them, you never really forget what they did for you and how they treated you. I was having a converstaion with Harold and I told him how I told Clifford back in like April that I could date whoever else, but I feel like no one will ever treat me, myself, the way he did. Minus the.....dramas... Sometimes it COULD get a little overboard, but one knows that he means it, its real. So, I thank you for that...its good to experience something like that once. And like I told him, we're at two seperate places, but that doesn't mean I don't care about you or feel the same as you do. But, we move on with our lives and we grow and we learn and we fall and we eventually win. But, I at least know what I should be treated like and I won't settle for anything less.