Why????????????!!!!!!!
So, another chance at happiness in a friends' of mine's life is ruined by a TYPICAL male who doesn't know how to be a REAL MAN and be honest!
Ugh......What I don't understand is why guys do things like this?
Why must they continue to be jerks?
Then you have good guys, who are scared to fall for someone.....scared that if the boy they're dating's MIA for a few days that something scandalous is going on.
Why is it that about.....98% of my friends are boyfriendless with no hape for anything coming along in the near future?
Why is it gay relationships can't just FUCKING LAST?!
I think that we, as gay men, are so used to things fucking up, that we expect it. I mean, I'm expecting it with Luis......The more we spend time together....intimate time together....the more Im feelin him and the easier it is to hurt me....and I'm trying to fight that feeling, which is probably what I've been feeling these past few days.
He came by today....oh MAN, that was interesting and after spending some time together, I was in the bathroom and grannie DEAREST came home at like 7 and Luis was in his boxers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, he's hiding behind the living room door and she goes into her room, I run him into the back room and he's like "Omg, she scared the shit outta me!" and I'm like "I'll meet you in the car...."
So, I see him out the door while grannies in her room and I leave cuz I had to go to work/study anyway and he drives me all the way downtown.....I know he was mad at me for a few moments, but my grandmother comes home so randomly............grrrrrrrrrrr....its def time to MOVE OUT!!!
I def don't want to start liking him more than he likes me....I don't wanna put more energy than necessary just because its so....ugh....guys are so flaky, they can change their mind in a second and leave you sitting there like "Huh, what did I do? Where did I go wrong?" Because they'll never say WHY they just started being an ass...they'll leave that up to ur mind going crazy cuz you think its you who has the issue. Aye Ai Ai.........I guess I was kinda pushing him away today while we were talking on the phone and I KNOW he was like "what the fuck is this about?" cuz when he came over the vibe was kinda weird.....and while we were watching tv things started to feel the same again, but I dunno.......I just don't know.
Maybe it was the weather, but I felt HELLA needy today. Ewwww, it was so gross......I mean, I didn't need him to say "I miss you, I need you, I want you, blah blah blah" but I was "feeling" that way when it came to him. Ugh........I haven't felt that way since....since a LONG time ago and I'm not about to let myself feel it again until I'm sure its okay....until I know for a FACT that I can feel that way and not get hurt in the process. A lot of friends are saying "Give it a chance. Don't sell it short just yet." and I'm not....Im just being cautious.....and I have every right to do so.......I'll keep ya'all updated...who ever's reading.....
Ugh......What I don't understand is why guys do things like this?
Why must they continue to be jerks?
Then you have good guys, who are scared to fall for someone.....scared that if the boy they're dating's MIA for a few days that something scandalous is going on.
Why is it that about.....98% of my friends are boyfriendless with no hape for anything coming along in the near future?
Why is it gay relationships can't just FUCKING LAST?!
I think that we, as gay men, are so used to things fucking up, that we expect it. I mean, I'm expecting it with Luis......The more we spend time together....intimate time together....the more Im feelin him and the easier it is to hurt me....and I'm trying to fight that feeling, which is probably what I've been feeling these past few days.
He came by today....oh MAN, that was interesting and after spending some time together, I was in the bathroom and grannie DEAREST came home at like 7 and Luis was in his boxers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, he's hiding behind the living room door and she goes into her room, I run him into the back room and he's like "Omg, she scared the shit outta me!" and I'm like "I'll meet you in the car...."
So, I see him out the door while grannies in her room and I leave cuz I had to go to work/study anyway and he drives me all the way downtown.....I know he was mad at me for a few moments, but my grandmother comes home so randomly............grrrrrrrrrrr....its def time to MOVE OUT!!!
I def don't want to start liking him more than he likes me....I don't wanna put more energy than necessary just because its so....ugh....guys are so flaky, they can change their mind in a second and leave you sitting there like "Huh, what did I do? Where did I go wrong?" Because they'll never say WHY they just started being an ass...they'll leave that up to ur mind going crazy cuz you think its you who has the issue. Aye Ai Ai.........I guess I was kinda pushing him away today while we were talking on the phone and I KNOW he was like "what the fuck is this about?" cuz when he came over the vibe was kinda weird.....and while we were watching tv things started to feel the same again, but I dunno.......I just don't know.
Maybe it was the weather, but I felt HELLA needy today. Ewwww, it was so gross......I mean, I didn't need him to say "I miss you, I need you, I want you, blah blah blah" but I was "feeling" that way when it came to him. Ugh........I haven't felt that way since....since a LONG time ago and I'm not about to let myself feel it again until I'm sure its okay....until I know for a FACT that I can feel that way and not get hurt in the process. A lot of friends are saying "Give it a chance. Don't sell it short just yet." and I'm not....Im just being cautious.....and I have every right to do so.......I'll keep ya'all updated...who ever's reading.....