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im cold again, the slightest dip in tempreture and i cant keep warm. i dont remember when i knew i couldnt keep warm with heat, its been a long time. there are a lot of things i cant generate myself, warmth being the least of them. because i obsorb everything around me, happiness makes me happy, saddness makes me sad, laughter makes me laugh. seems i cant produce any of them without a source. because im a lizard, incapable of warmth without heat, incapable of living without life. but more than that im half of everything, they say semi-feral like a coy-dog. never has a lizard a stray dog or a coyote been ever a tame thing, docile and gentle. so thats what i am, something that cant warm without heat, something that will never be tame never wild. reliant on humanity for wamth and shelter but never trusted to be tame or docile. because it doesnt matter how hard to try to warm myself or hard to try to be obedient. i will always be your villian.