just in case, I got a Plan B
I am famous for having a back up plan. And not just a back up plan but a plan A, B, C and even a plan D, for when all else plans. It's a Virgo thing. This is also kindof a byproduct of being a child and having to depend on myself to get things done. I love my mom but she did not raise me in the most stable household. She did instill in me the attitude that I have to be the one to make things happen and that I have to be determined about the things that I want regardless of what others say. See there are some benefits to growing up dysfuntionally.
Now i want this house. I want this house badly. As a result, i have planned out my budget, carefully accounting for the first, last and security deposit. I have even mapped out how to get boxes and what room i will begin packing first. But as a plan B, i am also planning on the situation in case i don't get the house. If i don't, then i will take some of the money that i have mentally allotted for the move, and buy the furniture that my current apartment desperately need. There are some religious ceremonies that i need to have done. D. needs some help getting his car a little earlier. And I could start my emergency fund a little sooner than I planned. So there is a good side to if i don't get the house that i want. Now that that is said, I still really want the house. I will go on record here that if i dont get it, i will be severly disappointed. I havent consciously thought about not getting it (trying to send only good energy into the universe) but the fleeting thought has made me create a plan B. We'll see. D. is confident that we will get it. Let's keep our fingers crossed. The landlord is supposed to give us an answer by today, well tomorrow at the latest. I really do need to move. We still have no hot water.