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Hiya. Most people I know don't even look at livejournals anymore so I thought I would try posting here instead of my much more visible myspace.
Right now my life long friend, Cristal, is headed back from Afghanistan. I have to admit I have plenty of worries over this. It's been over a year since she's lived here and over half of a year since I even saw her face to face. I've changed, many don't notice how much because they barely talk to me and when they do I have a habit of hiding it. I don't know how to explain it other then I look at the world with a bit more cynical eye these days. I did a lot of soul searching since I had the time and space to do so and I've realized how much I hadn't grown up in all these years. Yeah, in some ways I am still ahead of my age group, but there was an amazing amount of stuff I was behind on.
Such an example would be my expectations. I seemed to live in a faery land where things could be achieved just by trying hard enough. Now? That's bullshit. Sometimes things just don't ever happen how much you want them to or try.
Another thing I realized is that I'm a bit of a lost soul. I'll write more later.
Right now my life long friend, Cristal, is headed back from Afghanistan. I have to admit I have plenty of worries over this. It's been over a year since she's lived here and over half of a year since I even saw her face to face. I've changed, many don't notice how much because they barely talk to me and when they do I have a habit of hiding it. I don't know how to explain it other then I look at the world with a bit more cynical eye these days. I did a lot of soul searching since I had the time and space to do so and I've realized how much I hadn't grown up in all these years. Yeah, in some ways I am still ahead of my age group, but there was an amazing amount of stuff I was behind on.
Such an example would be my expectations. I seemed to live in a faery land where things could be achieved just by trying hard enough. Now? That's bullshit. Sometimes things just don't ever happen how much you want them to or try.
Another thing I realized is that I'm a bit of a lost soul. I'll write more later.