FIRST has begun
hey i am at first and lately i have been thinking about alot as you can see my grades appearence and attitude has changed grately lately alot of times i dont know what to do with myself i feel like im losing my mind i think about alot of things like geometry and how im failing and its not that im not trying its that i really dotn understand and like no one believes me that i really dont understand i also have had my heart broken and have told my mom things she never knew she would hear from me my sisters r all insane and should not be allowed outside near public people one of them thinks she can make me choose sides between her and her friend and if i had to all i kno is i wouldnt choose hers my sisters have problems they drink to much and someday there gunna realize it and im afraid that when they do it might be to late but who knows idk ne more. i have been really emotional lately to i cry when i drop things and when i think of hannah hannah has been on my mind lately and i cant figure out y i think of ppl who drive fast like my cousins friend and all i really think about when shes with him is if she is ok she is my best friend that i dont want to lose if i lost her i think i would lose all my sanity that i have left and not be able to function ne more life would not be worth living and to not be worth it is something that doesnt matter i kno i am making no sense ne more but i get scared and i have no one else to tell this to but you well i g2g ill ttyl bye
- Crystal -
- Crystal -