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I try so hard to mess up my entire life.
And no one will let me.
I try so hard to push my favorite people away.
And they won't go.
Time for me to just admit it: I'm weird and ashamed and guilty and insecure all the time, and I'm a hard person to be friends with. REALLY hard.
I'm not sure if I'm ever going to be better than this. If you stick with me, I'll be completely shocked.
And grateful.
To everyone who should have cut their losses a long time ago: I actually do love you. I actually want you in my life. I may never actually be able to admit this to your face. But you help me more than you know.
Thank you.
And no one will let me.
I try so hard to push my favorite people away.
And they won't go.
Time for me to just admit it: I'm weird and ashamed and guilty and insecure all the time, and I'm a hard person to be friends with. REALLY hard.
I'm not sure if I'm ever going to be better than this. If you stick with me, I'll be completely shocked.
And grateful.
To everyone who should have cut their losses a long time ago: I actually do love you. I actually want you in my life. I may never actually be able to admit this to your face. But you help me more than you know.
Thank you.