Hope dangles on a String like slow spinning Redemption.
Im handling this Mike and Barbara thing the best I can. I think Im doing pretty good concidering the fact that the selfish whore completely fucked me over. I dont know how to feel about it. My first reaction is sadness and hurt and anger, but now Im just, blank. Im slowly letting it all sink in, eventually Ill get it and Ill go from there. I have to go through it all like I have to. I wasnt ready for it to be over, but it ended like that against my will. It should be me in Barbaras place but no, she always wins. Its always been that way, always will. She plays this perfect role model that everyone loves so much, but she has no problem fucking her "friends" over to benefit herself. This is why I cant even understand why Mike would give her the time of day. Shes always been that way, shell never change. Of course though, Mike is one of those people that falls for her shit and thats how once again, she wins. This is why I hate being a girl. I havent met one real, honest, good, giving female yet. They all lie, bitch, are selfish, petty, manipulative, vindictive, and dont give a shit about anyone but themselves. Fuck girls, I curse the day I was born as a girl. I hate it. None of my really close friends are girls becuase I RARELY find one worth talking to. Anna is about it, and it sucks me and her arent better friends. She actually gives a shit about her friends and thats RARE with girls. Everyone else, including Barbara, falls into that stereotypical crappy girl label. Mike will never see this about her, because, obviously, spreading your legs open to a guy and going oh look at me look at me is attractive to males these days. I figured this out as well. You know how girls usually go for the asshole douche bags that fuck them over and never for the good guy? Same with guys. They always go with the fakest bitchiest sluts in the whole entire world. Of course they wont go for the one who actually has cared about them alot for a long time and would do anything for them, they obviously want the new fake ass bitch who will fuck over there friends just to get what they want. This is why I dont have a boyfriend. I cant bring myself to fuck over someone I care about, no matter the circumstances. Yes, I did it when I was younger, but I learned my fucking lesson. It was stupid as hell and I grew up and learned never to do that again. Obviously some people are too fucking stuck up their own asses to learn. Ok, enough about this, and if you dont like what I said, fuck you, its my journal, dont read it if you dont like it. And if you want to comment thats fine too. But if you say some idiotic thing thats only going to piss me off Im going to delete it. Ok, Im going to leave you all with this survey thing. Can more then one person please fill it out. It would be nice.
*muah* lovelies.
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. colour eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?
*muah* lovelies.
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. colour eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?